#139

finally a post after a long hiatus
of not knowing how to face the world.
my mind is still in blur,

22 JAN 2009
i cant remember what i did on thur.
went to school.
tired.
i did go to school right?
oh whatever.
I RMB LE.
i met joyce.
correct?
we went to rivervale mall.
had SAKAE SUSHI.
homed late~
she wanted to buy a shoe but ended up buying a pen.
so for CNY she wore a PEN instead of a shoe!
HAHAHA~

23 JAN 2009
didnt go for CATS in the early afternoon.
overslept.
went for S&W.
no energy at all.
totally no energy.
):
worked after S&W.
bombarded with questions of should i quit in my mind.
i dont understand why i want to quit
but
there is something that makes me refrain from quitting.
argh.
worked greeter.
mood even more bad.
cos the feeling of bu bei zhong shi zai ci zeng jia.

24 JAN 2009
i dun remember going out.
got la,
to buy dinner.
joyce working
as main runner.
actually i agree go there is cos i noe she working alone sure sian sian de.
if not i cook bei bei mian liao.
alot of dai ji la.
quarrels.
sian diao.

25 JAN 2009
CNY EVE
woke up got tv to watch,
but then cant really watch cos must do up the decorations.
i dun like to do up decor cos must climb ladder.
i dun dare climb ladders.
i am scared.
mum like dunnno like that.
sister see me climb can tell lor.
and i have a stupid friend who says no to helping me in CNY decor.
reason: NO MONEY DE.
he is a stupid money face fren. >.<
then at night go eat reunion dinner.
father side the guys only.
i really hate this CNY.
THIS YEAR LA. just to top it off.
nothing super good happened.
but a lot of super bad like shit things happened.
i already seen through some people.
if i start to minimise contact with you
you should get the hint.
super shit.

26 JAN 2009
CNY.
HAPPY CNY.
this year i didnt send out any greetings,
just a same to you la etc to people.
except for msn to some people online.
woke up with three sms all from naing.
lol.
he type xin wrongly.
go bai nian only at one plus.
this yr CNY not as much $ but okay la.
had dinner again.
i think their dinner always very expensive one.
we should have BBQ instead.
its cheaper.
and more fun also.
went to da gu house after dinner.
got madagascar 2 lor.
want to watch but grandpa not happy want to go home.
cos of some reasons.
this CNY is a disaster cos people keep quarreling.
my mood really down.

27 JAN 2009
went for lunch with grandma and grand aunty plus my cousin.
as usual he wanted his chicken backside.
super lol.
again quarrels heard in the car.
mother saying things like she rather she dont give birth to children.
its always the same line.
why cant out family be happy ~
)=
met joyce at 6.
an impromptu outing.
went to buy my sister a wallet.
she better study hard and not let me down.
OKAY!!!
its not cheap hor.
start studying already okays,
we had fish and co for dinner.
then made a din there.
that joyce.
haiz
then we ask herwan who working in the kitchen.
he suddenly scream and ask why
i shocked like anything dunno what to answer.
lol.
reason shall not be spoken here.
homed after buying apple pie for people's breakfast.

28 JAN 2009
OH BOY THATS TODAY!
wake up jiu not very happy le.
haiya
cannot sleep.
i pondering about something.
went to school for one over hour two lecture.
then mum fetch home.
sry yanling i cant pei you today!
)=
and i hope u like ur present! (belated la, heh heh) (= (=