#257

16 June 2011

"I'm now sitting in their 4-star hotel over in Anuradhapura. If you ask me, no i dont want to leave this place. i would gladly stay at this resort forever and ever and never return. Ah well i can dream. people have dreams."

It's about 5:30pm and we would be off to see two other sights.

the view at night at the stupa that i went to was super nice cos of the lightings.

LIKE CHRISTMAS TIME THOSE LIGHTINGS LIKE THAT.

Seriously, so far all the places that I've been to require lots of walking up stairs which are actually just rocks carved out not-very-evenly, sandy places, and yeap you got that right. I've got to move around many places barefooted. TRUST ME, when the sun is up there and you step on the sand, your feet scream HELP. i finally get how ants on a hot wok would feel. you cant stop moving or you would get burnt.

HELLO IM NOT EXAGGERATING! REALLY!

but our first stop from the start of the day was at Kurunagala's farm of some sort. we were actually there to release cows. i think damn shiok. cos by going there, i have a cow named after me and a SQUIRREL named after me. OMG SQUIRREL YOU KNOW. how many of you can hold on to this fast moving animal and actually have it named after you?!

shut up if you can do what i did.

i want to feel special tyvmbnty.

and then we went to see the rock temple.

okay basically the places i went to are mostly holy places of worship.

there is really alot of these places in sri lanka.

and really, the place is nice.

my photos look decent not cos of my photography skills. (my photography skills suck)

ITS REALLY THEIR SCENERY THAT MAKES EVERYTHING LOOK SO NICE.

the manuals are like super nice to me! omg talking about them make me miss them now. they are super smiley and they always bring me to different places to take photos. SO NICE RIGHT!

i wonder is it just me or are singaporeans really hostileeeeeeee. means im hostile too):

oh the tour is great, except for the way this outspoken unhappy person who makes me upset with the way she says of people. (us in question) oh man i really dont like her okay i shant talk about her.

oh and the manuals call me nanggi (which stands for younger sister) cos i am the youngest there haha.

OKAY I LOVE THE HOTEL HERE. I WANT TO STAY HERE FOREVER.

PS this resort is called Palm Garden Village Hotel. if you want to know more ask me! i'll gladly tell you how great this hotel is!

#256

15 June 2011

Woke up at 3:30AM again.

this time to offer food to 80 arhans.

oh i forgot to mention.

it's their really big day in Sri Lanka.

They celebrate the day that Venerable Mahathir brought Buddhism to Sri Lanka.

idk how to spell it. its called possum day or smth.

basically packed stuffs for the short getaway, play game and goff to find dad.

went to town again!

had KFC leyyy.

hahaha kfc never tasted so nice LOL.

then all the shops mostly closed due to the event.

i went to their rather decent shopping centre.

AND I HAD MY FIRST BASKIN ROBBINS ICE CREAM THERE!

hahahahah.

ya i always go malaysia, but i never ever ate that.

HAHAHA.

okay and we travelled in a tut tut.

hehe okay im tired. shall end this entry here! HAHA

#255

14 June 2011

I finally got a chance to go out to the town today!

to run some errands but at least i got out to see what's outside!

we waited for the taxi for one hour (YES ITS THAT LONG)

journey out to the town was about 1/2 hours cos it was school time so it was pretty congested.

the stores here are basically like those we see in little india.

didnt have any proper meals today.

they have this porridge gruel called kanji. surprisingly quite nice.

that bruise still hurts lol.

after running the errands we came back and went out for sightseeing!

we went to 2 holy places before going to a new meditation centre that Visaka manual is building. (yes they call nuns manual there)

the funniest thing is it rained each time we were visiting somewhere. awesome right. then their rain is rain then stop then rain again then stop again one.

the journey to each place was loooooooong. but i would say its worth the bumpy rides. cos the scenary was super nice.

btw the roads are so bumpy that i woke up with bruises here and there.

yes, that bumpy.

#254

In the world of emotions, we are given a choice to pick how we want to feel. I choose happiness.

13 June 2011

had to wake up and prepare by 5:15AM

T.T

really sleepy and i couldnt get up.

it was the ultimate busy day today!

i guess my body clock still works. I was up before 5AM.

"We had to carry this big bowl/4 small bowls of rice up a stretch of road barefooted."

and wooohooo i dk how i carried it, i ended up with a bruise on my head.

SOMEHOW (idk how) it cant be seen but oh boy i can feel it.

PAINFUL like mad.

we did the same thing for lunch and then went to do this transfer of merits.

Actually i got kind of spooked out.

cos i couldn't see anything and suddenly another person came along other then the three spirits we were supposed to transfer merits to.

you know? like you can't see them but they can see you thing.

After all these, we started getting prepared for our 3D2N Tour.

had a meeting and omg im super excited even though its not exactly what i was thinking of and all haha.

And once in a while over here, when things are quiet, i stop to think of people I'm close to in Singapore. Different people who give me different feelings. And i wonder, when things get to where they are, how did they happen, and why. We are all not perfect, and yet we demand perfection from those around us. We end up not being fair to everyone, including ourselves. Everyone gets upset and we end up taking on diverging paths. We somehow just can't seem to accept people for who they are. It's in us, all of us. Why?

After the talk, i knew even more that I can't hide away forever. I'm strong enough to stand again i know, because i stood before. I don't know what inner peace is, but what i know is that i will never find peace with myself in this really hectic dramatic lifestyle which i am really not interested in living. And this can't be changed if people around me don't change, and more importantly, if i dont change. but i do know that i can be able to do better if i am just able to let go.

And this, is what i have been in denial of.