#212

song in my head: 爱不单行, 折疊式愛情
i didnt watch tht show, not yet... haha!

my previous post was so sian right.
idk, recently work is so sian.
aiya life so sian.
oh my mother god.
i sound so sian also.

I WANT TO DO ALOT OF THINGS YOU KNOW ))):

1. BACKPACKING
2. TRAVEL AROUND SINGAPORE
3. i wanna work from home.
4. i want my jogging.
5. i need my sleep.
6. KBOX :)
7. do some crazy things
8. READ.

i've finished the "book of tomorrow" alrd.
gosh, nerdy me is coming back.
how how how.
i just keep reading and reading.
this holiday is a disaster.
i'm one of those people in the train ride reading while standing.
it kind of allows time to pass fast.
i look up and OH i'm in kovan alrd.
then i'll race against time to reach home before 10.50pm
hahahaha.
the funniest things that i do when i have nothing better to do.

i think i should come up with a proper list.
i haven't blogged about what happened recently.
hmmmmm,
maybe i should start =D

actually this whole week passed by in a blur.
i mentioned kaya toast in my last post right?
hahahaha.
omg i got cravings for it! heh heh heh *imagine my panda hopping ard. haha!*

18 MARCH 2010
i really dun like working at CP.
this weird guy keep staring at me.
its very freaky.
VERY. ))):
one day i'll get nightmares.
and then maybe i will SCREAM at him. D:

19 MARCH 2010
work was so funny today,
i got visitors today!
- patrick came frm centrepoint during his break.
- bday girl, ly, swee mun, lynn, yoketeng came find me after their bday dinner and baoc meeting. they sat at the children table.
LOL.
and ly kept pretending she was buying a shirt for her husband.
they waited for me to finish work and then cut wy cake.
OMG MY PHONE DIED ON ME ):
i forgot to charge it, my fault. i didnt feed it.
oh damn whats wrong with me. lol.
oh and some red shirt guy scared the hell out of me.
i think i'll go to heaven alrd.
and then later i dk was talking abt what.
zy recommended to watch channel u show.
its called moment to remember.
i always wanted to watch the show.
i remember telling has that i found the girl pretty and she told me the girl looked weird (in secondary 3 or 4)
i dk why i never bought the show. i think cos i knw i will cry.
like watching hearty paws.
even though i only watch second part of the show,
its still so sad tht i cried.
do you know why the show is called moment to remember? because the first time of them meeting was the moment to remember, and even when she lost her memory of her beloved, she remembered him, their meeting, the moment she saw him, in the same mart again.

AHHH SO SAD. where to find this kind of guy u tell me!!!!
*i hope i wont be like her. my memory's kinda bad at times. )):*

20 MARCH 2010
mummy bday today. (:
i went to attend a talk with her,
its so boring that she dozed off u knw.
we left halfway.
haha!
we went to city square mall.
the eco friendly mall.
i saw STITCH!!
awww cute cute stitch!!
but some tall weirdo was in the costume so it made stitch look tall and skinny!
which is so not stitch. ):
OH OH
and i saw freaky chicky!
ewwwwwww
i went to popular to buy a new book.
and i left my beloved umbrella at popular.
lol. cannot continue like this. cannot cannot.
then we went to eat buffet!
i was so hungry that i felt i could eat a cow.
stupid me. i think at the rate i go,
i can't even eat a quarter.

just wondering, would you take someone who treats u like **** back?
i wouldn't, no. not anymore.

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has: thanks (:
who thee?: YES, let's go CYCLING. :D
janice: LOL, nice one. when are u really gonna get to drive ahhhh?
HShore: a post dedicated to you, omg, u're honoured or i'm honoured?
yijun: haha, thanks man. LOL

#211

hahaha, omg, i wanted to update,
but...
hahaha, distractions.
LOL.

SUPER JUNIOR.

never mind i dun mind. LOL.
shall update (like finally.)
i need to blog out 18 days?
gosh.
anw,
01 MARCH 2010
went for internship,
reached early cos first impression quite impt.
haha,
02 MARCH 2010 to 05 MARCH 2010
started out mystery shopping for the company.
kinda fun,
and i had company :D
haha.
♥
haha, on one of the days, we were so enthu. we finished up mystery shopping and went to watch movie!
all in the name of super junior.
hahahah,
not exactly lah, but got sorry sorry in it.
haha!~
ashley and me went hyper.
LOL.

06 MARCH 2010
worked at cj i think, half day only. haha
omg then i went to have STEAMBOAT BUFFET WITH MAD PEOPLE.
hahaha, we just kept laughing and laughing.
and eating and eating.
it was fun.
LOL.
then i rushed off to get to amk.
lucky matthew was ncie to share cab.
omg he paid majority of the cab fare leh...
then i find yijun, met my sister and we proceeded to crash ashley house.
AT 12 AM
*without knowing where she stay, exactly. LOL*
damn dumb i dun care. LOL
joyce join us later.
then
ASHLEY DAMN EPIC.
shall not throw her face here.
LOL.
omg hahahahha.

07 MARCH 2010
met ashley for dinner then we sit sit talk talk until very late
then go home.
i miss f&c.
and i really feel like going back.
haha, we sat at herwan station,
then peter kept kajiaoing us.
greeter alrd can recognize me.
LOL.
omg we famous liao.
hahaha.
ASHLEY SHALL FIND A GREAT BEST BOYFRIEND (:

08 MARCH 2010
day off today, spent today doing work and accompanying mother to places. lol.
09 MARCH 2010
work today at centrepoint. 10 mar also.
11 MARCH 2010
day off again.
12 MARCH 2010 to 17 MARCH 2010
work at raffles city and centre point
hha, almost everyday i got people to accompany me.
except today, but i walked around wasting time, AND I BOUGHT TOAST BOX :D
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh, been wanting to eat kaya toast for ages alrd.
i think i shld marry the chef working in toast box or yakun or smth.
then i can eat the kaya toast for free everyday.
hahahaha!
I LOVE KAYA TOAST!! :D :D :D

i'm super touched by ALIEN AND ASHLEY (:
♥
alien smsed me and asked if want meet after work. she finish at 10pm, that means that we would meet only at 10.30 and she would have to wait for me for like half hour plus? and she waited!! and we ate ice kachang hahha, and went home after that (: and she encouraged me through all this, THANKS! ((:

ashley keep wanting to accompany me for meals during my break but it's forever raining. hahah. and finally one day it did not rain! so she came down!! haha, it's really touching because she come down from amk for just less than one hour and i need to go back alrd. then her journey is quite long. *sniffs* and she also encouraged me through all this shit (((: THANK YOU

oh and one thing. i'm sick and tired of mending anything broken so i shan't bother from now.

Cleo, dedicated to Blackie.

i think studying is good.

and so is reading.

it keeps your mind off things for that instant.

but the after effects are huge.

somehow or other,

picking up 'Cleo' was one of the hardest decision i ever made.

but no, i don't think i regret this decision.

granted, i closed the book several times,

not because it wasn't nice to read,

not because i was too busy.

it was a nice book to read,

but reading it was hard.

it was as if i knew it had the answer to whatever i wanted,

but dreaded finding out how am i supposed to do it.

i can't exactly find out the answer i wanted,

but there was a perspective i was given at the end of the book.

i knew i would cry, i knew i would take time,

but a voice inside me said 'go for it'.

as much as i wanted to stop reading the book,

the emotions were real,

they were all facing me,

and for a moment,

i thought i saw myself in the book.

when the end reached,

i started to wonder.

if blackie had left in a more complete manner,

would i be more comforted?

leaving broken little pieces around when she left,

it would be a wonder if i actually feel whole.

the difference then and now is hardly visible.

and i wonder if i ever walked out of it.

i'm only human,

i tend to compare.

i know deep inside that if sparky were to leave me one day,

i wouldn't be as upset,

i wouldn't go into a state of depression for whoever knows how long.

i love sparky all the same,

i would miss her too,

but it's different.

blackie was so young.

the words that my dad said then just replayed in my head,

over and over again.

up till today,

the memory of my dad saying that sentence still comes back to me like he had just said it moments ago.

i woke up at the time she left,

for the first time in my 17 years then,

i woke up in the middle of the night.

maybe there were other times,

but it was because of nightmares,

but i clearly remembered that morning.

i woke up for no reason.

i should have woken up then,

but i went back to sleep because it was still dark outside.

but time is not for us to turn back,

and yesterday is something that is gone forever.

everybody wants the rainbow,

but you do need a little rain to see one rainbow.

and maybe when i finish the 'book of tomorrow',

i can finally embrace my future.

#210

this blog is so dead. im super sian to update my blog lately.
maybe for a hidden reason. hmmmm.

time flies,
like seriously,
i was just preparing for common tests, then suddenly it was exams, and now, internship.
gosh i sound like some old woman.
-.-
and i'm only 18.
i can't imagine when i'm REALLY an old woman...
sigh.

anw~~
10 FEB 2010 to 25 FEB 2010
SPENT STUDYING AND HAVING EXAMS.
hahaha
omgosh.
so long period of time and i concluded it in a statement.
i had so many study partners this time round,
totally different from the past, where i either studied alone or with just one friend.
and now i'm wondering what will happen when i am put in one corner alone again...
this exam, i went back to school alot of times, went to bishan lib many times too, hardly went to amk lib, AND STUDIED OVERNIGHT AT SERANGOON MAC!
i only dozed off a few times LOL.

i studied with: ashley, casslynn (ashley friend), LY, lynn, phoebe (also ashley friend), wenyi, yijun, yoketeng

so cool can! i make new friends even when there are exams.
LOL.
who says studying kills social life.
wait, i think its me. haha!
i dun care~~

on the 21st, i went to uncle's house for housewarming party or sort of.
omg, alvin and michael is so cute. LOL. (:

anw, on the 25th, we went to the zoo after IEF paper!
so cool.
:D
i like otters, and polar bears, and the sun bears, and the many many many more. :D :D
must thank janice for her 4 free tickets.
heh heh =))

26 FEB 2010
damn sick, hate it. ):
but i made pineapple tarts lol.
1st time one was better! ):

27 FEB 2010
went to yt hse after meeting yijun at centrepoint~~
played mahjong,
LOL.
now i want play viwawa~~

28 FEB 2010
i went to pei sister to buy her stuff and she pei me to buy my stuff.
we saw ZHANG YAO DONG.
(:
SHUAI on tv, even more shuai in real life. haha!
i think i will like my internship. LOL