#248

i'm actually lazy to get my scheduler from my grandma to find out what i did over the past few days/weeks/month.

and so i shall just blog randomly because i really need to blog or i will really get mad.

not that i would explain why i am going mad. (:

i notice i love to talk about life whenever i am not feeling very happy.

shall just be random and talk about avril's latest album. when i heard what the hell and read the comments about her at youtube i was very sad. because she is the first female singer that i ever liked listening to. i'm never a listen to rock person but i just like avril's songs. and so, imagine my happiness when i heard her new album. (: it's just as awesome. and somehow, idk if its me, i feel her songs mellowed already, and you can sort of see her growing up with her albums? okay maybe its just me. seriously, her album is awesome. i love everybody hurts, i love you, stop standing there, wish you were here, (im like listing out the whole album alrd) haha

another random thought. i should start packing my table because it's messy and i cant even find my EZ link card. i'm so lazy lately i really just wanna sleep the whole day away. i used to think that sleeping is a waste of time but now i am sleeping almost the whole day. ):

oh i've finally learnt cycling. im so happy i've never been so happy my life. i wish i could stay by the beach in future so i will get to smell the air of the sea every single day when i wake up. no i'm not crazy. somehow i just love this very serene feeling.

oh and i would be going to sri lanka some where in june/july? shall go there to 'find' myself. stay in the mountains and meditate my whole week or two away there. honestly i cant wait. yeah i'm going on again with that finding myself part. i am always finding myself. i always say i want to find myself but i get lost again and again. im really going to isolate myself in the mountains this time and see what i get from it.

oh and i've really got to start preparing for my FTT. because i'm gonna have no time.

AND I SHOULD START CONTINUING ON MY TW TRIP PLANNING. because time is running out and i am still on day 4? ):

okay i shall come back to blog after all these! :D :D

MY MOTIVATION!

#247

sometimes i really think that my dog thinks that i'm mad or smth. or really weird.

idk im so random. i just suddenly thought of this sentence. but then now when i think about it i have totally nothing to substantiate my statement.

is this a good or bad thing?

okay i'll think of smth.

i'll crack my brains to think of smth.

okay here's the something.

1. i talk gibberish to my dog just so that she will dk what the hell i am saying (seriously i wonder if she actl EVER understands anything besides the usual commands*) and then she will tilt her head.

* commands include mum mum(food!), kai kai (walk walk), sit, por por (carry) = SO LIMITED. oh and she actl selectively decides if she wanna "hear" your commands

2. owners don't like their dogs on their beds right? at least my dad doesn't like it. i always carry my dog to my bed after she had a bath and then i'll play with her there and 'lock' her till i leave the room. and she doesn't like the bed either. but she doesn't like the sofa too. she only likes the red chair which is now a big big cushion only. OH and that brings me to her knowing another 2 commands (red chair and blue chair). she loves sitting on these two chairs (red one more) and whenever i say the word she will get up so very excitedly.

3. i like to tell her to come here, and then play with her a bit and tell her to go away, and when she goes away i'll ask her where are you going? come back! 99 out of 100 times she really does go away and does not turn back. maybe cos she thinks i'm just gonna do it again. but hey! i'll justify my madness by saying that its cos i'm trying to help her exercise by walking more steps!

4. i love to irritate my dog. and when i irritate her and she barks or growls at me, i'll scold her. i'll be like you dare to growl/bark at me! and then i bet she's like confused cos i'm actl the one at fault. i'm not sadistic okay. i just have to stand behind her and pretend i wanna disturb her by touching the ground near her and she'll bark already. she is one cranky old dog. but don't you think its funny. hahaha

5. because i say so. i dont want to leave it at number 4. so i have to think of a 5. i just think she thinks that i'm weird and crazy.

okay i'm really weird. ):

Totally Random

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i wanna talk about the books i've read before! (at least those that i can remember)

Bestest Author of all (at least the one i like): Cecelia Ahern

Books under her name (which i have), [bolded those that i've read]: The Book Of Tomorrow, The Gift, Thanks For The Memories, A Place Called Here, If You Could See Me Now, Where Rainbows End, P.S I Love You

Her new book's coming out. (yes basically i collect all her books.) not the short stories though. idk why haha.

P.S I Love You is one of the most heart wrenching books I've come across. If my memory still works well, its chapter 23, the chapter where her husband was already about to die, but went to the travel agency to book a holiday for his wife to go for after his death touched me the most. I'm not joking when I say that this book really makes you feel like you do want to love someone, and that true love really lasts. Holly goes through her life after the death of Gerry with no direction at all, till she receives a set of letters by Gerry as promised. The story mainly revolves around "The List" and how it manages to help Holly get through life after her husband's death. From the excitement of the minute of each midnight of the 1st of the month, to slowly faded away It mentions 10 things for her to do in 10 months, both little and big. This list brings her through her loss and teaches her the lesson in the sweetest way that time heals all pain, and things get easier as time passes by. Honestly, it really awed me. All the 10 things can seem minute but have such great underlying meanings.

Where Rainbows End is a more light hearted book. Another name for it is Love, Rosie. This story is about two friends, Alex and Rosie, who grew up together since young. They go through their lives in separate worlds as Alex had to move, but made a pact (and kept to it) to continue communicating (via email most of the time). Both have their own families at different points of their lives, are always on different paces therefore always missing out on the opportunities, but find themselves to each other 5o years later. It's just like telling you that if you two are meant to be, nothing can stop you, even if it takes 50 years. And they experienced this silence, this really golden silence which i always feel is magical. "Looking at each other and the whole world just seems to stop. There's suddenly not a single sound, not even the singing of the birds or the wind blowing. It's just the both of them."

If You Could See Me Now is about imaginary friends. The main reason why i can relate to the character is because we both have the same name. Oh yeah maybe i can include the part where we both leave little room for error. Ivan teaches Elizabeth how live should be lived, instead of being in control all the time. She begins to trust him, get over her life issues, and just when everything seems to be falling into place, she realizes that he isn't who she thought he was. This book is cute yet really touching at various parts of the book. I remember how Ivan was told he was not allowed to stay with Elizabeth due to specific reasons, and how broken hearted he was. He actually loved her before she could even see him, before they even talked. And so they eventually went separate ways, and Elizabeth learnt how to relax while Ivan continues to hold on to this very special relationship they once had.

The Book of Tomorrow is a really great book to me. Mostly because it's so timely. Tamara has everything that anyone can have, but she is hardly ever satisfied with it, until one day, when she loses everything suddenly and is forced to give up her lavish lifestyle. While struggling to cope with these painful changes that happened suddenly, Tamara chances upon a diary which magically fills itself up with the following day's events. And it comes to a point of time when she realizes that she can take her chances and change her future. The story unfolds really naturally, with the unexpected events surprisingly linking up together to finally unravel a greatest secret about her parentage, and her mother's past. She learns as she goes through the hard knocks in life by making mistakes, both big and small, and finally grows up with this knowledge that you have to bear the consequences for your actions.

And these are the other random reads I can think of at the moment (maybe cos i just read them awhile ago)

Perks of Being a Wallflower. A great book actually. This writer is awesome because his writing style is so... different. This story spans around a boy called Charlie, who can well be anybody. He writes to this person whom he feels is a good listener and in the letters to this person, he writes about the many things that he go through, including his love, his mistakes, and his depression. And i wont forget how this girl he really loves told him that

"Charlie, don't you get it? I can't feel that. It's sweet and everything, but it's like you're not even there sometimes. It's great that you can listen and be a shoulder to someone, but what about when someone doesn't need a shoulder. What if they need the arms or something like that? You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things."

“Like take their hands when the slow song comes up for a change. Or be the one who asks someone for a date. Or tell people what you need. Or what you want. Like on the dance floor, did you want to kiss me?"

This book left me kind of depressed for a little while because of the things that he faced. His posts are passively negative and somehow the negative energy can be passed to you. But you learn abit of something here and there whenever this happens. so i guess its good in a way?

What Alice Forgot mainly teaches you to slow down and relook your lives. Alice lost ten years of her memory and within 10 years, she find herself today going through a divorce with the husband she loved so much, and 3 kids whom she feels she can never control. The book continues through for a large part of the story where she tries to bring her life back into what it was. And i always remember how Nick (her husband) told her that he would know when she regains her memory. She would look at him different. And she really did, he recognized it instantly, when she regained his memory. But could 10 years really change you and your love? Or should you remember to always slow down and spend more time with each other? A marriage falls apart for a very simple reason. both parties stopped trying.

The Notebook has a predictable ending and can be easily followed. i literally finished this book in a day despite the ending. You just want to flip page after page. The story is really heartbreaking and we see another totally devoted man who gives his all to the woman he loves, and this woman, who is willing to give up her riches and stability in life for a man she loves, and finally overcoming what people would call impossible/a miracle.

Cleo The main thing that attracted me to the book was the cover, because of the Blackie. In many ways, they were similar. The same type of energy level, the same type of healing spirit. Cleo was a cat, a black cat that helped in healing a family after the death of someone close. The writing style makes the read a light hearted one though there are instances of my heart wrenching up and my tears falling. Her descriptions of each event are so vivid that i can imagine them in my head and laugh at the comical occasions. Cleo answered me many questions that i had in my mind then. It again teaches you how to cope with loss, a different sort of loss, while dealing with life and the many problems that it brings with.

#246

It's the end of exams!

*WOOHOOOOOO*

and this means i have graduated (if i didn't fail any modules)

OMT don't make me fail idw to go back study for another half a year and waste my time and hai my GPA. ):

and anyway, after the dreaded exams...

02 Mar 2011

finished LM paper with a very mixed up feeling.

(cos what came out was hardly taught in lectures. its like use ur brain and common sense which really make me think my answers are wrong because... yes sadly, i have no common sense): )

and then yj and i went to cheers to buy papers and then crashed the lib room (for the last time ever) to....

look for jobs.

eh seriously, i really wonder how do people find jobs.

The moment i open and look at the Straits Times page i'm like

"Omg, I'm giddy already."

The television shows make finding jobs so fun and easy.

okay and then yijun started TRYING to convert me to watch gossip girls.

wouldn't say its a bad show but sorry i'm too lazy to load shows.

i take a year to watch a 13 episode thing on youtube. LOL.

and we went for xlb buffet at holland after that.

They had the tiniest mantou ever. we are like super amazed at the size of it. LOL.

people have bite sized cornetto, they have bite sized mantou.

anw we were lousy la, ):

and thanks yijun for the treat (zhuai yi xia)

03 Mar 2011

i think it's gonna be hard to forget this day EVER.

anyway it was my first practical lesson ever.

applied for my pdl and went for the lesson.

OH THANK GOD THE INSTRUCTOR WAS SO KIND AND PATIENT.

although i think he must think i'm really dumb for stalling his car for like 2352462123 times.

):

i'll never forget how i just step on the accelerator abit and the car was like vrrommmm.

omg my heart race with it.

hahaha!

and my heartbeat just keep pumping very very fast even after 10 minutes have passed.

why is it so exciting to drive ah.

HAHA!

went for FTT e-trial test after that (2 hrs later)

so yeap. i only studied for my FTT for 2 hours, and fell asleep while studying.

and i did 3 tests out of 5. (passed 2 only)

so means i shld buck up.

cos i really no time after coming back from tw.

04 Mar 2011

Met huda to pass her the report, then yijun joined us after that.

we clowned around in the lib, LOL.

*children section* LAUGHS.

and the we went to have lunch tgther afterwards.

and went to PS to see daiso and get the stuffs.

did ashley's card and box (:

before doing more housework ):

*see the emotional upheaval*

05 Mar 2011

HEY THTS TODAY!

had lunch with mom and bro and sis before heading off to ashley's house to celebrate her bday.

PLAYED monopoly deal while waiting for the rest.

oh i super huai nian this game sia.

her sec sch clique really very funny i tell you.

LOL.

then we were playing this game like snap but can be played by alot of people.

its so qi ji.

LOL!

anw just kept laughing at alot of things. even if its not funny. LOL.

but i think at 7 plus i start to seh and stone alrd.

like all the energy sapped alrd.

then we cut cake at 8 plus and headed home at 9 plus!