#254

12 June 2011

"Your mind is powerful. It can lead you to success or ultimate failure."

All i do here is sleep!

couldn't wake up in the morning for morning prayers. the time for morning prayers is 3.45am by the way.

and i slept till it was time for breakfast. went back to eat breakfast which was basically fruits cos i didnt feel like eating their rice and etc etc. went to find dad after that.

have i mentioned i went to visit their super duper big kitchen? its madness to prepare so much food! (practically in pails) their pots and pans are like 1000000X larger than what we have at home.

alright exaggeration.

but you get what i mean.

and after that it was

*SIGH* SLEEP AGAIN.

woke up in the afternoon for prayers before lunch. to commemorate the 8th death anniversary of their teachers, the one i saw many years ago, before he passed away. we ate lunch with the puny yoghurt spoon instead of the big spoon cos our spoons went missing ):

you probably can guess what i did after this.

(YES SLEEP)

dad says its cos of the atmosphere here and the air humidity difference and idk what. all i knw is i want to sleeeeep.

I THINK IM JUST LAZY LA OKAY.

made dinner after evening prayers. okay its actually just cup noodles ahahhahaa.

my lips are so dry but i forgot my lip balm. ):

we had a short meditation during the short evening prayers. and suddenly i felt refreshed. i wasn't so tired anymore. this feeling is something i haven't felt before, especially these 6 months. i realized that in life we seek many answers, and live for the future, neglecting the present. we worry about many things, and these things cause us to never be able to find peace from within. we can't feel happy. we have too much in our heads, too much worry when all we should really be worrying about is when we would stop breathing, because no matter how hard life is, the only time when it all really ends is when breathing ceases.

Deep down i started to realize that i wont be able to find my inner peace, not when my mind is filled with all the hurt, pain and questions.

i wont know what tomorrow brings, but i do know that the drama for the next few days in sri lanka would cease. im far from drama, and im glad at it.

reality is something that i cant hide away from forever, but if i believe, i know what happiness can do to the reality of mine.

time can heal certain sort of pain. if things can be forgotten, i learnt that you shouldn't let it haunt you back by recounting to others if you can't let go. All you will do is reopen wounds and deepen your hate.

the serenity gets into you. it got into me.

#253

11 June 2011

Huda's Birthday today! (:

"Go to anywhere with an open heart to accept. and do anything with an open mind to adapt."

and i am already in sri lanka at this time.

Sri lanka's time zone lags behind by 2½ hours.

The first thing we were greeted with was their duty free shop after clearing their customs.

THEY SELL HOUSEHOLD APPLIANCES AT THE ARRIVAL HALL.

i really mean household appliances, like refrigerators, washing machines, televisions, etc. and alot of tech stuffs.

TOTALLY UNLIKE ALL OTHER DFS i came about.

awesome right.

okay im joking.

have i mentioned that i got a free upgrade to business class cos economy class was full?

idk how it happened but yeah anw i gotta love emirates for that.

their service in biz class is (Y)

we reached at 2.15AM (S.L time)

oh and one thing i learnt there? dont change your money with government banks. the rates will all be fixed. the private banks can give you much better rates.

AND THEIR SERVICE IS REALLY SLOW.

its like they have all the time in the world.

Just changing the money and buying a sim card took 1½ hours.

MAD OR WHAT!

omg and the whole time all i wanted to do was sit on the bus so that i can sleep.

im serious.

eh but then again you can't blame me.

i mean, its 2.15 am (SGT 4.45am), way past my bed time.

their sun is glaringly bright.

you really squint when there is the sun saying hi to you.

and the ride can get pretty bumpy.

but people like me can just fall asleep when i want to sleep so to me, its nothing.

LOL!

honestly i like the life there. if i spoke their language, had no worries in the world, i might stay there even!

we stopped by their teahouse/cafe where they served milk tea where you get to add your own sugar. (if you let them add it yourself you would be drinking sugar) and i notice they love to use the spice marsala. (and no, i dont like that)

their bakery sells alot of things, and they dont store their loaves of bread properly. they leave it in the open. okay i dw think about the creepy crawlies on shelves.

and we continued our journey on the primary school but cute like anything bus.

I SAW A POLICE POST IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD.

its damn crazy. like a small police post in the middle of a turnabout.

super cool! oh but bus move too fast for me to capture a shot ):

I SAW A RAILWAY TRAIN RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES.

yeah i know. i can see the same thing at bukit timah.

but this railway track i saw crossed roads. i mean, all cars had to stop for it to go. omggg hen cool leh i like!!!!!!

when we finally reached, we settled down and went to have breakfast. they eat those set yoghurt for every meal. its super fantastic. im so in love with yoghurt. after touring the meditation centre we went to help give out lunch. great experience. and omgosh they do this twice a day everyday.

OH AND THEY USE WOOD TO COOK.

because gas is really expensive up in the mountains.

Everything over at where i was is really basic, but you don't feel like you need anything else. It's like enough for you.

their food's spicy man, although it looked so harmless.

we continued walking around after lunch and went to join in a meditation group.

actually i didnt get the essence of meditation. i couldnt accept what i heard while i meditated. its as if i had a mind of my own and my mind didnt want to accept it because it was filled with a lot of other thoughts of my own.

Things will get better though, i'll find my answers.

#252

03 June 2011

Yijun's birthday today!

I don't remember if i lied to her alot.

okay i dont remember my lies.

but i know all of us pretended to 'FORGET' her birthday!

and she was really sad when none of us mentioned a thing.

till we went into CJ.

and she saw her cake.

OMG IMAGINE HER FACE.

and then we went to walk around after that cos we wanted to go to tanjong pagar for dinner.

with LY and ZY!

met them all at the MRT station.

she got shocked i think.

and then we took a bus down together and had dinner while waiting for joanne. tsk

joanne late again.

had those fruit tarty cake!

and then we went home tgther in circle line! :D

07 June 2011

Met yijun and zy for kungfu panda!

omg when it was a child it was so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee.

actually this cartoon is not bad you know.

its hilarious for most parts of the show.

and i enjoyed it even though i didnt even watch part 1.

so its awesomely awesome (:

*btw i like the word awesome. thats why i use it incessantly. haha!

10 June 2011

Met girls at vivo for lunch!

reached abit late but still earlier than has to buy a cake.

met up with has in front of breadtalk

and then went off to harbourfrontcentre tgther to wait for the other two

WHO WENT TO WATCH KF2 tgther again after 3 years?

HAHA

i wonder if they sat couple seat again seriously.

okay i shall stop joking.

i love the girls because despite how we seem so distant at times, we are all the same when we meet up. we just catch up with one another, and end up having 100% fun.

got onto my flight at night after being super busy the minute i got home.

oh the amount of sleep i get is really.

so enjoyable.

HAHA

Strength

Where do you find your strength?

When something really hard crashes into our world, where do we turn to?

some of the things we count on: our family, friends, people we love, things we love to do.

there are so many more.

But when something really really hurts you, you have to remember that they can make it all better, but its up to yourself to pick yourself up from the fall and continue walking forward.

Time.

It can't heal all the pain, but it can allow you to replace unhappy memories with happy ones. You've got to let go to accept the happiness that is waiting to enter your life.

i've fallen before. i've had my fair share of downs enough for me to wise up and mellow down. i've learnt to pick myself up. i've learnt to grow up. i've been through many phases in life for me to start telling stories and theories of my own.

It's not easy to pick yourself up after falling time and again. But one thing i know for sure, each time you stand up, you learn something. You do, whether you see it now or 10, 20 years down the road. It pieces up what kind of person you were, have become, and will be. They are your own stories to tell. You have the decision to make with regards to how great you want it to be or how sad you want it to be.

You dont have to be strong for anyone else if you can't even answer to yourself. We all have our moments, moments where we just want to crawl into a corner to be found, to be comforted and hugged, someone to tell us its all gonna be okay, someone who will continually tell you all these till you believe them, till you are convinced totally.

i can speak so much negativity in life that i've forgotten how to be happy again. i've heard so much negativity from myself and people around me that i've changed into someone who doesn't even know how to be happy.

Do you know what it's like to be happy?

Do you know what it's like to be able to smile and not be afraid of anything that would happen?

Have we left all these behind in the process of growing up or have we been too caught up in our chases for a better future that we forgot the importance of our present happiness?

I don't plan for a better future anymore, because my plans always diverge.

we all get tired. we all want to wait for people around us to pull us up, but they can't do this for us all the time. we've got to get strong on our own. we've got to explore the ends of each tunnel on our own at times. we've got to close ourselves up at times to learn to get strong and be a better person for us and those around us.

i've got to get stronger than i am now. that's the amount of strength i need.

june hasnt ended!

so i shall wait till june end then i blog about june hohoho!

but i want blog abt sri lanka trip first.

but im tired alrd!

so tomorrow! :D

#251

been on MIA for long enough to shoot myself. ):

what if i forgot what i did!

nah it wont happen. thanks to my schedule book. :D

you know, its june now and i haven even posted may's entry.

but because im kinda excited to blog about my recent trip to sri lanka, i shall skip many nothing really special days and only talk about funny exciting days! :D

04 May 2011

was really super sian after some stuffs over at night on 3rd of may i remember. and so decided to go out to clarke quay. and cos sis needed to study for her exams we went out tgther :D

we took bus 80 all the way there. then we started talking. and we were nearing clarke quay. so we were telling each other must look out for clarke quay.

2 pairs of eyes right? but we ended up at harbourfront interchange.

AWESOME OR WHAT.

we cfm 100% plus chop sisters cos our directions bad like *idontevenknwhowtodescribeitnowlol*

so anw we ended up at vivo's starbucks. then 2 chefs came to sit beside us. and really talked super loud. =.=

then my sis said that woman sit till super unglam. so they sat and talked till like forever.

my sis damn pissed cos she cant study and i sian cos i want read the book on sri lanka but if i read i cant hear music cos i cant concentrate cos that book is boring but if i dont listen to music i hear their voice i sian. -.- see what i mean.

annoying people who cannot talk at a lower volume. THEY NOT IN KITCHEN LA NO NEED SHOUT WALAO EH!

then we went to LJS for dinner and got homeeeee! (:

07 May 2011

met yj for CJ!

oh yay i got to eat my chao nian gao.

and kimchi pancake :D

then i forgot what we did.

but i think we went far east to get her colleague wedding present preordered.

I THINK LA.

omg i cant rmb haha!

then we went to hougang mall to buy cake and dinner then homedddd :D

09 May 2011

AHHHH AVRIL CONCERT

i dont know why she so awesome but she is awesome. :)

her vocals are super powerful.

and i like this album also.

she sang alot of songs.

AND ENCORED SOMEMORE!

omg she never does this!

and this is the first concert of hers i've been to.

prolly the last cos i think she might not come out with anymore concerts):

but its okay if she come back.

TOTALLY FINE WITH ME COS SHE SINGS SO WELL

and writes nice songs!

it was a mad rush the whole day cos in the morn i had driving till 10:10am then i rushed to work then i rushed down to stadium. wooohooo. (Y) but i wasnt tired. :D HAHA!

11 & 13 May 2011

Met LY for dinner! (:

had long chat on 11th and 13th for a short while at pasir ris then i went off to find sis and yj over at plaza sing! then the three of us ate at cafe cartel (no i didnt eat la ahah). after that we went off to walk around and finally went homeee! :D

14 May 2011

met the girls to collect grad outfit!

end up i didnt even rent cos i borrow from yijun LOL

then we went off to vivo for picnic! :D

had alot of fun there with the girls!

super long didnt meet up alrd.

18 May 2011

MET HAS FOR MACBETH!

apart from the fact that the sound system not that good, everything about the show is good.

haha! its cos i read the book before.

and awesome partner i brought along with me.

has got so annoyed with the people behind us she keep complaining about them.

LOL.

i forgot what they did.

but they were annoying.

HAHA!

21 May 2011

BBQ at my house! :D

Love the people who came.

cant be bothered with those who didnt come and made up excuses not to come.

cause i use such small things to determine how much i mean to you.

and if thats how much i meant, then this is how much you get from me.

and that night was important to me because i needed certain answers.

and your presence would mean alot to me.

so i thank all of you who came and know my story (:

even if you dont, but came, thank you too :) ♥

23 May 2011

Met wenyi, nicholas and youwei for Kbox today!

eh this wenyi very bad.

she ming ming know how to sing the song but she always tells me she dk how to sing

then end up i always have to solo sing one.

TELL ME WHY SHE SO BAD.

speaking of K i kinda miss K leh.

):

so long didnt sing.

HAHA im a liar i just sang in my room this afternoon.

LOL

-.- okay i shall stop being so lame.

at this point of time i cant stop hiccuping.

and this is annoying me.

@.@

25 May 2011

met ashley for dinner and long chat! :)

updated her alot of things that i didnt cos i didnt meet up with her haha!

had pepper lunch and then we went home after that (:

"HAVE TO REMEMBER TO TAKE VIDEOS FROM HER HAHA"

26 May 2011

Grad day today! (:

and bro's chi birthday tooo!

went to fish and co for dinner at NEX after grad ceremony (:

♥ all my lovelies ♥♥

28 May 2011

Bro's bday today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:

went out for family dinner and then homed to cut cake! :D

i dont understand how on earth can this happen.

neither can i accept the fact that you allowed for this to happen and you ruined all of us.

all that could have been.