"Your mind is powerful. It can lead you to success or ultimate failure."
All i do here is sleep!
couldn't wake up in the morning for morning prayers. the time for morning prayers is 3.45am by the way.
and i slept till it was time for breakfast. went back to eat breakfast which was basically fruits cos i didnt feel like eating their rice and etc etc. went to find dad after that.
have i mentioned i went to visit their super duper big kitchen? its madness to prepare so much food! (practically in pails) their pots and pans are like 1000000X larger than what we have at home.
alright exaggeration.
but you get what i mean.
and after that it was
*SIGH* SLEEP AGAIN.
woke up in the afternoon for prayers before lunch. to commemorate the 8th death anniversary of their teachers, the one i saw many years ago, before he passed away. we ate lunch with the puny yoghurt spoon instead of the big spoon cos our spoons went missing ):
you probably can guess what i did after this.
(YES SLEEP)
dad says its cos of the atmosphere here and the air humidity difference and idk what. all i knw is i want to sleeeeep.
I THINK IM JUST LAZY LA OKAY.
made dinner after evening prayers. okay its actually just cup noodles ahahhahaa.
my lips are so dry but i forgot my lip balm. ):
we had a short meditation during the short evening prayers. and suddenly i felt refreshed. i wasn't so tired anymore. this feeling is something i haven't felt before, especially these 6 months. i realized that in life we seek many answers, and live for the future, neglecting the present. we worry about many things, and these things cause us to never be able to find peace from within. we can't feel happy. we have too much in our heads, too much worry when all we should really be worrying about is when we would stop breathing, because no matter how hard life is, the only time when it all really ends is when breathing ceases.
Deep down i started to realize that i wont be able to find my inner peace, not when my mind is filled with all the hurt, pain and questions.
i wont know what tomorrow brings, but i do know that the drama for the next few days in sri lanka would cease. im far from drama, and im glad at it.
reality is something that i cant hide away from forever, but if i believe, i know what happiness can do to the reality of mine.
time can heal certain sort of pain. if things can be forgotten, i learnt that you shouldn't let it haunt you back by recounting to others if you can't let go. All you will do is reopen wounds and deepen your hate.
the serenity gets into you. it got into me.
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