#25

currently waiting for lms lesson to start... somehow, i dont feel happy. but 又不可以讲。very suffocating. really very suffocating. i never wanted to find the definition of happiness, but now, i want to know, i want to know the definition of happiness. i badly want to know about it. the weird thing about everything is that i always thought it was so simple, but everyone around me seems to be so complicated. hiding feelings. is it that easy? i am having a hard time pretending, i really am. today, i totally dont feel like socialising. i feel like shit and i seriously dont feel like saying anything. i dont feel like telling anyone anything nice. i just feel like going to one corner and do what i like without the care and concern of anyone. call me selfish, i dont care. this is just what i am picking up from everyone around me. ever know how it feels like to be alone? i just feel like being alone. i dont feel like understanding anyone or whatsoever.

you never cared though you said you did. all you cared about was yourself.

i think its enough. i had enough of all these rubbish.