#205

ern: yes got. and just now u even told me to go eat medicine for the mentally ill when im not even mentally ill!! ):
yijun: pessimistic about what ah? LOL
LY: ): why are u always so mean to me? *sniffs*

19 JANUARY 2010
School start so early today,
but end so late.
went to study at makan place with LY after sch.
ate subway cookies for dinner hees
for the first time ever, i was like really early for ief lecture.
okat maybe not really early but at least i knew i wouldnt be late,
i could take my own sweet time to walk.
lol.
20 JANUARY 2010
ief tutorial at 9 today,
jap test at 6 today,
in between is lots of playing applications my sister dled for the ipod
and lunch at makan place.
and then there was pmkt lecture that ended super early cos it was revision lect,
plus a bit of reading,
meeting yeesiew before test to study


i cried alot of times today,
the pain of losing you still just cant be erased.
and perhaps this pain led me to realize that

with love, pride is nothing. love can make the strongest fall because it leaves you when you have let ur guard down totally.

because of you,
i realized i can just cry whenever i wanted to,
thinking back to all the memories that are already lost in time,
i know you will never come back,
and as much as i hate to face it,
you are gone, and never coming back.
it's the first time i'm openly talking about losing you here,
and i doubt it would be the last,
because the moments are just too many
i dont need people to tell me that you are gone, and you wouldn't want me to be this way,
because deep down i alrd know, you are never going to feel this pain.
i hope you are happy,
and i will never forget you.

21 JANUARY 2010
no school today but i woke up at 8 plus.
whats wrong with me.
i only slept at 3am you know.
and i want to go running,
very badly.