#259

I've been getting quite a lot of questions about my grandma's hospitalization.
And the story just gets shorter and shorter with each person's asking.
From telling the whole story in detail, i now just say this: my grandma had a stroke.

Pretty much would summarize the whole situation succinctly.
But a stroke can be major.
For someone like grandma who loves moving around on her own so much, who can't bear to see anyone putting in extra efforts for her, she must be very burdened with all these thoughts while lying there unconscious.

Nobody wanted this to happen, and it just really is a great misfortune that we were away on a holiday when she had a stroke on Thursday. If we weren't away on a holiday she would be able to get professional help on the same day, instead of Saturday afternoon. The first stroke that struck her was a major one and somehow it had led to hemorrhage in her brain due to a blood vessel that burst. We made it back in time to see her for one last time before she never opened her eyes to look at us and hold our hands when we held hers. The second stroke hit her on a Monday morning. And there she lay, eyes closed, with occasional coughing, sneezing and frowning because of the phlegm. Her fever never fully subsided. With her condition deteriorating every day, it seemed bleak and we were slowly losing hope that she would ever get better. Each time the nurse fed her milk through her nose and did aspiration of seeing if she digested what she was fed earlier, my heart would stop for a minute. "What if she didn't digest what she was fed, what would happen if coffee-colored liquid was aspirated, etc" You see, coffee colored liquid aspiration meant that there was internal bleeding somewhere in her. And this scared me. She couldn't be on most of her medication because her medication thins blood, etc. And thinning blood meant that the blood would flow faster, and if her brain has not stopped bleeding, it would lead to her death if the blood reached some part of her brain. And so, the doctors basically couldn't do anything. I just heard them repeating this sentences a number of times. "We just want to make her as comfortable as possible, and if anything happens, we wouldn't perform any CPR on her or use the electricity (okay idk what term they use but its the CPR thingy) to shock her awake." To me, it just meant that if my grandma died, they will just come over and pronounce the time that she died.
Suddenly, the nurses took her off the critical condition list 2 days ago. I can never figure out on what grounds they lifted her off. Maybe it was because she passed the initial critical stage of one week without another stroke occurring, but her fever is still there. And the worst thing is, when the fever comes, they give her panadol. Then it subsides, and nothing is done. It comes back and they give her panadol again.
They keep wanting to change her ward because grandma is considered to be contagious due to certain germs or bacteria that is living under her skin. "i don't know how she got it, but somehow she got it." And so, they first shifted her to this air-conditioned ward - "Which is pretty much stupid. I think the invention of an air-con in the hospital ward is stupid itself, not to mention placing patients who are contagious in the same ward together. Doesn't this mean that the germs would be spreading around in that room itself and mutating with each other thus leading to the birth of even more vicious germs? And more complications would occur, and more transferring of wards would thus be the result." And so, we didn't agree to it, but it wasn't due to this reason, grandma is very afraid of the cold. she cannot stand air-con. So grandma got shifted back to her previous ward but a different bed. And they want to change her again because they say they now have a non-aircon bed and she is still contagious.
"The change is still not done yet because my dad refuses to allow that, due to them not getting back to him on certain questions he raised." - but i bet they would try to find all ways and means to move my grandma!