#167

i truly ultimatly think i have nth better to do at this time of the day.
i need something to stop me from thinking all sorts of nonsensical nonsense.
that sounds abit hard.

just a idkhowiamfeelingbutitsnegative post.
#1. i truly ultimately hate the fact that around 12 plus am everyday if i am still using the damn internet, i will have to restart my stupid laptop because there is this stupid idiotic idk what kind of virus that attacks my laptop. DAMN IT
#2. i hate the fact that my lectures are like more then half the school across from the entrance of the building.
#3. i really really really cannot stand it when guys like someone and just DONT open their mouths when they made it so obvious to EVERYONE already. wats the point of letting everyone know then. it feels like a dog marking its territory.
#4. i dont like like the feeling of loneliness these days. i dont like to go anywhere alone when there are alot of people at the destination. i feel outnumbered.
#5. i dont like to see people queueing up for those really cheapskate things.
#6. i really cannot stand it when i see people rushing into the MRT station. i think they deserve to be taught civics moral education once over, more intensively.
#7. i cannot stand it when people use those colorful letters over and over again repeatedly. i think they should brush up on their vocabulary before they start speaking because repeated words just goes to show how many words they know.
#8. i dont like it when people tell me they are going to E but on the way they drop by A,B,C,D and do not tell me a thing about it at all.
#9. i dont like people to ask me to do this and that for them. i do things for people WHEN i want to do it.
#10. i dont like it when people try to control what i am thinking or try to talk me into something. if i am in a good mood i will listen, but if i am in a bad mood. you're dead.
#11. i think that people should give credit to themselves for whatever they do and not keep pushing it to someone unknown to me (at least)

idk why i am typing this. but im not shooting anyone. just abit irritated recently.
okay easily irritated.
i think the list can just go on.
and at the end of the day i would wonder.
wow. i have so many land mines.
and all these are like suddenly appear kind.

have anyone wondered how people make friends?
when u were in kindergarten, pri school u made friends so easily because u werent afraid of losing face.
then suddenly, u wake up one day and realised u forgot how to make friends.
you suddenly grew conscious of things around you.
there is this 16 40 60 theory going around.
at 16 u worry about how people think of you.
at 40 you stop bothering and
at 60 u realised no one was thinking about you.
funny as it seems, it does seem true to some extent.
people love to cling on to whatever they lost.
and as a result, u lose even more.
therefore u cling on even more.
they closed their eyes to the rest of the world so that they wont face anymore regrets,
without knowing that they would face even more regrets not seeing the rest of the world.
unwritten regrets. unknown to them start to surface a long time later, when its too late to turn back.
and you hear people saying ' i should have '
the point is, why wait?
why learn to be someone who regrets again and again instead of living for the present and future?
unless making urself miserable is the goal in ur life...
then i have nth to say.
when was the last time u went up to someone and say hi i am __. can u be my friend?
when was the last time u spent time to know somebody?
people just look at whatever they saw in a glimpse and came out with a whole new conclusion and story.
people just want to receive. and when people who keep giving do not receive, they will start to become someone who receives over time.
as a result, nobody gives.
even the most optimistic person can have depressing moments
and this is something i realised, the moment i started poly...