#195

i swear my memory is going to get me into trouble one fine day.
and i dont know what to do to make it get better.
shit man.
i would never eat pig brain cos i think its disgusting.
and i dont like to eat fish.
so i guess the only two methods i knw is out of the question.
arghhh.
no good no good!! D:



26 NOVEMBER 2009
i took so long to recall what happened today. hahaha
i was working was ashley!!
heh heh~
working is fun with her (=


27 NOVEMBER 2009
"today passed by in a blur.
i cant remember what actually happened."
that was what i typed initially.
and then i remember i worked with ashley for 2 days :)


28 NOVEMBER 2009

today was a day spent at home whereby i wanted to study but... hahaha.

shit man. i cannot go on like this. where is my motivation D:

and i successfully didnt touch my phone for one day! LOL

i didnt even realize where i put the phone. hahaha

29 NOVEMBER 2009

went to malaysia today! :)

a nice nice day spent with daddy and mummy :D

i like happy days like this (=

because i didnt tell alot of people i go m'sia,

they thought i MIA~

30 NOVEMBER 2009
today is a should be happy but my mood is not very good day.
i think is cos i didnt sleep enough. ):
school ended early, and i went home straight because i was really tired.
in the end reach home, 3 plus then went to sleep
and woke up at 5 lol. exactly 5.
head very giddy.
but i felt better after eating sweet!! :):)
i think i am falling sick though~

i'm starting to get greedy.

its like a pen and a pencil, used for the same things but would never go together...

i dont believe that fish and co amk is useless and worthless.

JO I MISS YOU D:

#194

24 NOVEMBER 2009
worked today.
hehes,
greeter and station A,
tired but feeling a bit better.

25 NOVEMBER 2009
went to town to watch 2012 with Huiying, LY, yanling, and YT today =D
i guess its the company that matters when you watch a movie :)
though the show is really very dramatic, its still rather nice ^^
and went for class after that.
today is a rather sad day because of smth.

#193

who thee?: YEAP YEAP love them!!
who thee?: :D linked =)
Ern: yes i dun believe. actually i cant really rmb what i dun believe LOL
yijun: lol. (=

21 NOVEMBER 2009
worked from 11.30 to 5 today.
:) although i had to do two stations.


22 NOVEMBER 2009
went to meet yijun after running today.
lol it was very funny.
i thought we were going to meet at hougang mall.
she thought we were going to meet at stadium.
we both were not at where we thought we should be.
haha.
in the end we took seperate buses to hougang point
and surprisingly i reached earlier :)


23 NOVEMBER 2009
had project meeting in school today,
after that, went to meet sis for lunch and so that she can buy her shorts.
she owes me 24 bucks now because she is unwilling to spend her hundred bucks.
._.
homed after that.
really felt like going running but i was tired.

my Ecstasy :)

throughout this whole period of time,
i learnt..

to think twice before making a decision,
to find a remedy for a mistake if i have made one,
to stay away from things that make me upset,
and to do things that make myself happy.

#192

yijun: yeap yeap in the club. NICE!! :) i dk why, but their songs are ADDICTIVE!
yu loon: haha ya, blogging can sometimes make me happy LOL.

ahhh people dont be mistaken,
the poem at the previous post is not written by me!!
i read about it, and feel that its really meningful,
so i posted it. lol.


19 NOVEMBER 2009
i was happy today.
haha, i wonder is it due to jogging in the morning.
jogging makes me happy.
i dont understand why.
although you might feel tired,
the feeling is *dk how to describe*
and it gets yor mind off things.
you just blast your music and run on and on.
i saw NV people when i went jogging.
hahaha, for a moment i thought they had some sports meet heats
then i realized its probably just athletes training.
anw, i went back to work at fish co today.
im happy =)
i felt so at ease.
i dont really know why either.
haha!


20 NOVEMBER 2009
my mood in the morn increase by alot sia.
school ended at one today,
then i went to meet YIJUN for lunch:)
weeeeeeeeeeee
she is addicted to stocks
*tsk tsk*
its a bad habit
LOL.
then we went to buy food, and talk abt this and that =D


after that go meet joyce at toa payoh.
I DK THE STUPID WAY AT ALL.
lol.
and i was lost and walking around aimlessly for a long long time.
i think at least got half an hour.
and trust me, my bag wasn't very light.


after that we went to W hq at bugis cos joyce need to submit something.
and i was walking around bugis while waiting for her.


and we went to rivervale mall after that.
SAKAE =)
then we went fairprice and that alcoholic wanted to buy asahi.
NOT ME. stop looking at me like that.
ITS NOT ME~!
ITS HER!
and we bused home
on 119.
when i got home, mother was already sleeping.
*i'm safe*
HAHA!

friends.

The friend that you've outgrown
Here's to that friend you've outgrown,
The one whose name is left unknown.
The one who wiped away your tears,
and sought to hold your hand,
The only one who ever could really understand
When others turned the other way,
No beginning, just an end.


She's the one you turned to,
the one that you called friend.
She laughed with you, she cried with you,
and felt it was her duty
To remind you of your worth,
and all your inner beauty,


When others' eyes could only dwell
Upon your exposed outer shell.
They saw a fat girl steeped in braces.
Not seeing the real you,
they turned their faces.
But she was there to whisper,
when others didn't care.


She held your secrets in her heart,
that friends like you could share.
You never had to be alone,
But now she is 'cause you've outgrown
Her for those others whose laughs you share,
As you run carefree through the air.


Time has eased your form and face,
But she's the one who knew your grace
When those who you now call your friends
Saw no beginning. . . Just an end.

#191

ytd has lesson till very late (8pm)
thats normal for wed
but im so tired already.
saw paul when waiting for bus.
turns out he takes 151 too
LOL.

and i dozed off on the bus.
and stopped at hougang interchange.
...
i went to buy my so called dinner
and then went to take a bus home.
and then i saw RINALDI!!
:):)
so long never see him already.

all conditions seem to be pointing there at the moment
and my msg memory is full again lol.

ytd was a mixed day again D:

how can one be happy and sad abt one single thing...

#190

class ended quite early today
jogging was rather fruitful today actually.
went joggin with LY and YT today!!
after jogging, we went to bathe
and then we headed to the market which i never knew existed
i think im so lousy lol

and today was so funny man..
got alot of inside jokes though LOL.

but the best joke is the tower joke,
followed by USA and AMERICA joke.
and so many super unglam things people did.

probably one of the best days i had so far.
lol.
oh oh oh and and *forgot what i want to type alrd*
LOL

its not easy closing your eyes when your world continues spinning even when you choose to snap out of it

#189

let me blog about yesterday :)
went to have chocolate fondue at has house cos plans changed.
supposed to go there study and haha, mini movie marathon instead LOL



they were nice shows by the way (L)


and pictures :)

this fondue looks like it was stabbed, complementary background picture lol


chocolate coated pringles chips.

can hardly taste the flavor!

i forgot what this is.

it belongs to haslinda.

i think it was a chocoloate coated banana that was dropped into the lol fondue.

we bought these snacks! *:D*

our fondue before it totally melted, not exactly nice looking haha

and this is what haslinda's newly bought fondue looks like :)

i'm so in love with this song :D

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh

I’m trying to erase your scent now
I’m trying to forget your touch now
Why did you have to be like that
I can’t believe it, in the end you were that sort of guy

I’m trying to find my life now
I’m trying to meet my friends now
You obviously lied, and again, like a fool
I doubted that it was true

Can you please take away all the promises you made?
Even the petty habits, even the small memories
I’ll burning them all away
I’m putting you, who lives in me, to sleep
The image of me you knew up till now won’t exist anymore

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I’ll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I’d be able to forget you

See your figure dancing inside the dazzling light
You place your hand on the hip of first girl you see
In the loud club, I shout out louder for you
You seem like you don’t even hear a thing

Tonight, I’ll also forget you for a while
I’ll erase all the pictures of you and me on my desk
It’s tiring, I want to escape from you but
Why do I keep remembering you? I’m not okay

Can you please take away all the promises you made?
Even the petty habits, even the small memories
I’ll burning them all away
I’m putting you, who lives in me, to sleep
The image of me you knew up till now won’t exist anymore

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I’ll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I’d be able to forget you

When this night completely ends
Seems like I’ll be left alone in my room
Seems like I’ll be crying like a fool
I still see you in my dreams
Now I’ll let you go
You shouldn’t look for me again either

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I’ll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I’d be able to forget you

In the club x3

#188

yanling: lol this sy is a different sy. this sy is a girl LOL
yijun: what is that? lol

worked from 12.30 to 5 today.
after that went to the hospital to visit grandpa.

i was super pissed off with some stupid idiot singaporeans who cut my queue while trying to go into the bloody MRT. i should just make the resolution to scream, shout and yell at whoever else who does that. because of them, i couldn't get onto the train, i couldn't reach the hospital earlier, and worst of all, i got hit by the MRT door. and then i blasted my music. pity there is not song that tells people not to cut queues cos its rude and inconsiderate. would have LOVED to voice that out, because i know people CAN hear my music. yes i am incosiderate, but i realised that when you are inconsiderate, others are least likely to cut ur queue. and it works exceptionally well when you start to give the 'i am very pissed if you get on my nerves you are DEAD' face.

okay stop complaining about singaporeans.

grandpa seemed fine,
and going to the hospital is very troublesome.
they have to register you,
then give u a face mask,
then u have to wear it,
then u take a lift,
then u can reach the level to proceed to the ward.
there are cameras every where and it is very disturbing!

after that went to have dinner.
grandma ordered alot of food.
and for the first time after so many days,
i finally had a proper dinner.
on the way there, i was playing with sister's sunglasses
PS I think they are very cool!
LOL.
so tempted to wear contacts now.
hahaha.
and so dad came to join us for dinner.
and then when we left, we were walking towards the car,
and and and!
grandma point to smth on the floor.
i picked it up
and realized its FIFTEEN DOLLARS.
:D
but before everything, i dk where, but i lost the cat keychain.
super the sian.
so the cat is worth 15dollars?
haha!
i should go and buy the water bottle. :D:D
because~
this money is not mine!
*but i shouldn't be so selfish..
or i will never find money again. D:

PS i just realise this post is so lucky. its 188 lei!! hahaha

i think its a cruel mean joke that heaven is playing on me.
i therefore should stop caring about this anymore.

today is a very mixed up day.

i couldnt pay attention in lecture.
so many things happened.

but then,
after school decided to pei sister go do her hair.
then ashley come find me after her school.
and she sit there wait for my sister and the kena psyco-ed me to do our hair.
then we went to eat dinner,
chat awhile,
and homed! :)

i like parts of the day when i can be who i am
i like it the way it is now

i suddenly miss siyun alot...
know her for so many years and we never quarrelled.

what happened to understanding, trust and friendship?

#187

Ern: apparently dont believe you. D:
yanling: hahaha, i just realize this blog died.
janice: LOL. i cant think of anything to say.
yanling: im already back!! LOL
yu loon: :) thanks for everything, even when i was there and facing so many things :)
yanling: i survived!
SK: i dreamt that it was in my house that day! LOL!
Yi Jun: sg sun already killed me. but i am happy LOL

i havent been blogging for such a long time.
each time i log in, i dk what i want to blog about and i log out again.
and tadah.
the days become weeks and then months then years maybe.
LOL.

i think in time to come it will really become years.
blogs seem to be going out of trend hor.
shit why am i talking about this.
lol.
anw school has started and i still haven got to meet so many of my friends.
and i feel the drift at times.
aiya i dun really want to talk about this.

i found my motivation to attend lectures.
haha. this is all so weird.
:)

anw i should start on my projects and all already.
no more slacking! :)

random thoughts

my mood is better :)
but im not going to say why.
its just better.

i still miss you at times, whenever my mind is in a blank.
everything changed since the time you left.
i cant help but blame myself each and everytime.
i dont believe in coincidences.
because it is my fault.
but i wont run away anymore.
because i will learn to be strong.
i know whenever i need the courage,
i will think of you,
tear,
and move on.
it feels empty without you around.
the comfort seems gone,
the security is also missing.