#195

i swear my memory is going to get me into trouble one fine day.
and i dont know what to do to make it get better.
shit man.
i would never eat pig brain cos i think its disgusting.
and i dont like to eat fish.
so i guess the only two methods i knw is out of the question.
arghhh.
no good no good!! D:



26 NOVEMBER 2009
i took so long to recall what happened today. hahaha
i was working was ashley!!
heh heh~
working is fun with her (=


27 NOVEMBER 2009
"today passed by in a blur.
i cant remember what actually happened."
that was what i typed initially.
and then i remember i worked with ashley for 2 days :)


28 NOVEMBER 2009

today was a day spent at home whereby i wanted to study but... hahaha.

shit man. i cannot go on like this. where is my motivation D:

and i successfully didnt touch my phone for one day! LOL

i didnt even realize where i put the phone. hahaha

29 NOVEMBER 2009

went to malaysia today! :)

a nice nice day spent with daddy and mummy :D

i like happy days like this (=

because i didnt tell alot of people i go m'sia,

they thought i MIA~

30 NOVEMBER 2009
today is a should be happy but my mood is not very good day.
i think is cos i didnt sleep enough. ):
school ended early, and i went home straight because i was really tired.
in the end reach home, 3 plus then went to sleep
and woke up at 5 lol. exactly 5.
head very giddy.
but i felt better after eating sweet!! :):)
i think i am falling sick though~

i'm starting to get greedy.

its like a pen and a pencil, used for the same things but would never go together...

i dont believe that fish and co amk is useless and worthless.

JO I MISS YOU D:

#194

24 NOVEMBER 2009
worked today.
hehes,
greeter and station A,
tired but feeling a bit better.

25 NOVEMBER 2009
went to town to watch 2012 with Huiying, LY, yanling, and YT today =D
i guess its the company that matters when you watch a movie :)
though the show is really very dramatic, its still rather nice ^^
and went for class after that.
today is a rather sad day because of smth.

#193

who thee?: YEAP YEAP love them!!
who thee?: :D linked =)
Ern: yes i dun believe. actually i cant really rmb what i dun believe LOL
yijun: lol. (=

21 NOVEMBER 2009
worked from 11.30 to 5 today.
:) although i had to do two stations.


22 NOVEMBER 2009
went to meet yijun after running today.
lol it was very funny.
i thought we were going to meet at hougang mall.
she thought we were going to meet at stadium.
we both were not at where we thought we should be.
haha.
in the end we took seperate buses to hougang point
and surprisingly i reached earlier :)


23 NOVEMBER 2009
had project meeting in school today,
after that, went to meet sis for lunch and so that she can buy her shorts.
she owes me 24 bucks now because she is unwilling to spend her hundred bucks.
._.
homed after that.
really felt like going running but i was tired.

my Ecstasy :)

throughout this whole period of time,
i learnt..

to think twice before making a decision,
to find a remedy for a mistake if i have made one,
to stay away from things that make me upset,
and to do things that make myself happy.

#192

yijun: yeap yeap in the club. NICE!! :) i dk why, but their songs are ADDICTIVE!
yu loon: haha ya, blogging can sometimes make me happy LOL.

ahhh people dont be mistaken,
the poem at the previous post is not written by me!!
i read about it, and feel that its really meningful,
so i posted it. lol.


19 NOVEMBER 2009
i was happy today.
haha, i wonder is it due to jogging in the morning.
jogging makes me happy.
i dont understand why.
although you might feel tired,
the feeling is *dk how to describe*
and it gets yor mind off things.
you just blast your music and run on and on.
i saw NV people when i went jogging.
hahaha, for a moment i thought they had some sports meet heats
then i realized its probably just athletes training.
anw, i went back to work at fish co today.
im happy =)
i felt so at ease.
i dont really know why either.
haha!


20 NOVEMBER 2009
my mood in the morn increase by alot sia.
school ended at one today,
then i went to meet YIJUN for lunch:)
weeeeeeeeeeee
she is addicted to stocks
*tsk tsk*
its a bad habit
LOL.
then we went to buy food, and talk abt this and that =D


after that go meet joyce at toa payoh.
I DK THE STUPID WAY AT ALL.
lol.
and i was lost and walking around aimlessly for a long long time.
i think at least got half an hour.
and trust me, my bag wasn't very light.


after that we went to W hq at bugis cos joyce need to submit something.
and i was walking around bugis while waiting for her.


and we went to rivervale mall after that.
SAKAE =)
then we went fairprice and that alcoholic wanted to buy asahi.
NOT ME. stop looking at me like that.
ITS NOT ME~!
ITS HER!
and we bused home
on 119.
when i got home, mother was already sleeping.
*i'm safe*
HAHA!

friends.

The friend that you've outgrown
Here's to that friend you've outgrown,
The one whose name is left unknown.
The one who wiped away your tears,
and sought to hold your hand,
The only one who ever could really understand
When others turned the other way,
No beginning, just an end.


She's the one you turned to,
the one that you called friend.
She laughed with you, she cried with you,
and felt it was her duty
To remind you of your worth,
and all your inner beauty,


When others' eyes could only dwell
Upon your exposed outer shell.
They saw a fat girl steeped in braces.
Not seeing the real you,
they turned their faces.
But she was there to whisper,
when others didn't care.


She held your secrets in her heart,
that friends like you could share.
You never had to be alone,
But now she is 'cause you've outgrown
Her for those others whose laughs you share,
As you run carefree through the air.


Time has eased your form and face,
But she's the one who knew your grace
When those who you now call your friends
Saw no beginning. . . Just an end.

#191

ytd has lesson till very late (8pm)
thats normal for wed
but im so tired already.
saw paul when waiting for bus.
turns out he takes 151 too
LOL.

and i dozed off on the bus.
and stopped at hougang interchange.
...
i went to buy my so called dinner
and then went to take a bus home.
and then i saw RINALDI!!
:):)
so long never see him already.

all conditions seem to be pointing there at the moment
and my msg memory is full again lol.

ytd was a mixed day again D:

how can one be happy and sad abt one single thing...

#190

class ended quite early today
jogging was rather fruitful today actually.
went joggin with LY and YT today!!
after jogging, we went to bathe
and then we headed to the market which i never knew existed
i think im so lousy lol

and today was so funny man..
got alot of inside jokes though LOL.

but the best joke is the tower joke,
followed by USA and AMERICA joke.
and so many super unglam things people did.

probably one of the best days i had so far.
lol.
oh oh oh and and *forgot what i want to type alrd*
LOL

its not easy closing your eyes when your world continues spinning even when you choose to snap out of it

#189

let me blog about yesterday :)
went to have chocolate fondue at has house cos plans changed.
supposed to go there study and haha, mini movie marathon instead LOL



they were nice shows by the way (L)


and pictures :)

this fondue looks like it was stabbed, complementary background picture lol


chocolate coated pringles chips.

can hardly taste the flavor!

i forgot what this is.

it belongs to haslinda.

i think it was a chocoloate coated banana that was dropped into the lol fondue.

we bought these snacks! *:D*

our fondue before it totally melted, not exactly nice looking haha

and this is what haslinda's newly bought fondue looks like :)

i'm so in love with this song :D

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh

I’m trying to erase your scent now
I’m trying to forget your touch now
Why did you have to be like that
I can’t believe it, in the end you were that sort of guy

I’m trying to find my life now
I’m trying to meet my friends now
You obviously lied, and again, like a fool
I doubted that it was true

Can you please take away all the promises you made?
Even the petty habits, even the small memories
I’ll burning them all away
I’m putting you, who lives in me, to sleep
The image of me you knew up till now won’t exist anymore

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I’ll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I’d be able to forget you

See your figure dancing inside the dazzling light
You place your hand on the hip of first girl you see
In the loud club, I shout out louder for you
You seem like you don’t even hear a thing

Tonight, I’ll also forget you for a while
I’ll erase all the pictures of you and me on my desk
It’s tiring, I want to escape from you but
Why do I keep remembering you? I’m not okay

Can you please take away all the promises you made?
Even the petty habits, even the small memories
I’ll burning them all away
I’m putting you, who lives in me, to sleep
The image of me you knew up till now won’t exist anymore

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I’ll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I’d be able to forget you

When this night completely ends
Seems like I’ll be left alone in my room
Seems like I’ll be crying like a fool
I still see you in my dreams
Now I’ll let you go
You shouldn’t look for me again either

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I’ll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I’ll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I’d be able to forget you

In the club x3

#188

yanling: lol this sy is a different sy. this sy is a girl LOL
yijun: what is that? lol

worked from 12.30 to 5 today.
after that went to the hospital to visit grandpa.

i was super pissed off with some stupid idiot singaporeans who cut my queue while trying to go into the bloody MRT. i should just make the resolution to scream, shout and yell at whoever else who does that. because of them, i couldn't get onto the train, i couldn't reach the hospital earlier, and worst of all, i got hit by the MRT door. and then i blasted my music. pity there is not song that tells people not to cut queues cos its rude and inconsiderate. would have LOVED to voice that out, because i know people CAN hear my music. yes i am incosiderate, but i realised that when you are inconsiderate, others are least likely to cut ur queue. and it works exceptionally well when you start to give the 'i am very pissed if you get on my nerves you are DEAD' face.

okay stop complaining about singaporeans.

grandpa seemed fine,
and going to the hospital is very troublesome.
they have to register you,
then give u a face mask,
then u have to wear it,
then u take a lift,
then u can reach the level to proceed to the ward.
there are cameras every where and it is very disturbing!

after that went to have dinner.
grandma ordered alot of food.
and for the first time after so many days,
i finally had a proper dinner.
on the way there, i was playing with sister's sunglasses
PS I think they are very cool!
LOL.
so tempted to wear contacts now.
hahaha.
and so dad came to join us for dinner.
and then when we left, we were walking towards the car,
and and and!
grandma point to smth on the floor.
i picked it up
and realized its FIFTEEN DOLLARS.
:D
but before everything, i dk where, but i lost the cat keychain.
super the sian.
so the cat is worth 15dollars?
haha!
i should go and buy the water bottle. :D:D
because~
this money is not mine!
*but i shouldn't be so selfish..
or i will never find money again. D:

PS i just realise this post is so lucky. its 188 lei!! hahaha

i think its a cruel mean joke that heaven is playing on me.
i therefore should stop caring about this anymore.

today is a very mixed up day.

i couldnt pay attention in lecture.
so many things happened.

but then,
after school decided to pei sister go do her hair.
then ashley come find me after her school.
and she sit there wait for my sister and the kena psyco-ed me to do our hair.
then we went to eat dinner,
chat awhile,
and homed! :)

i like parts of the day when i can be who i am
i like it the way it is now

i suddenly miss siyun alot...
know her for so many years and we never quarrelled.

what happened to understanding, trust and friendship?

#187

Ern: apparently dont believe you. D:
yanling: hahaha, i just realize this blog died.
janice: LOL. i cant think of anything to say.
yanling: im already back!! LOL
yu loon: :) thanks for everything, even when i was there and facing so many things :)
yanling: i survived!
SK: i dreamt that it was in my house that day! LOL!
Yi Jun: sg sun already killed me. but i am happy LOL

i havent been blogging for such a long time.
each time i log in, i dk what i want to blog about and i log out again.
and tadah.
the days become weeks and then months then years maybe.
LOL.

i think in time to come it will really become years.
blogs seem to be going out of trend hor.
shit why am i talking about this.
lol.
anw school has started and i still haven got to meet so many of my friends.
and i feel the drift at times.
aiya i dun really want to talk about this.

i found my motivation to attend lectures.
haha. this is all so weird.
:)

anw i should start on my projects and all already.
no more slacking! :)

random thoughts

my mood is better :)
but im not going to say why.
its just better.

i still miss you at times, whenever my mind is in a blank.
everything changed since the time you left.
i cant help but blame myself each and everytime.
i dont believe in coincidences.
because it is my fault.
but i wont run away anymore.
because i will learn to be strong.
i know whenever i need the courage,
i will think of you,
tear,
and move on.
it feels empty without you around.
the comfort seems gone,
the security is also missing.

it has been a long time since i updated right?
it's shanghai's fault!
havent been able to log onto blogger under normal circumstances. LOL
anw,
i really dont know what to blog about shanghai trip.
there are so many things and i was there for so long.
i dun even know what to blog.
i think its easier to just ask me about it la.
haha

but i want blog about how my friends celebrate my birthday lol.
but im tired now.
the sun in sg is freaking sunny lei.
i feel like my skin is going to burn already.
lol

#186

blogging over here is so irritating because u have to go through many many many (ok maybe not so many) things then can get to the web.
and u cant upload anything. ._.

day three in shanghai
had a 4 hour lesson on BCOMM.
its really omg i cannot stand it at all la D:
and i think i am falling sick already...
the dust here is sometimes irritating and my eyes get it at times.
haha.
lessons have barely started and i am wishing for it to END.
somebody kill me
*maybe i should look forward to the slacking around when the term starts.*

day four in shanghai.
there was no heater in the morning!!
wat a bad day D:
seriously i wasnt in a good mood.
HOW CAN THERE BE NO HEATER IN THE MORNING?
at night i dont mind la, but in the morning?!
*i definitely looked forward to my face being black and nose trying to run away, DEFINITELY*
oh man, im whining again.
i should stop right?
*cos i have nothing else to whine about?*
and btw, we went to qi pu lu today.
it was a bit like going to vietnam de 'shopping centre'
i should blog details at another time haha

PS. SK has a panda blanket and i love to disturb here with it.
PPS. it feels like carrying sparky
PPPS. with blackie's weight hahaha
byebye!

#185

im like here in china for the second day.
haha
quite easy to adapt here i guess. its just abit tiring.
walking here and there, waking up early, sleeping late.
can say these two days are like for u to relax and blend in?
I ATE MY XIAOLONGBAO ALREADY!!
nice nice de wor.
and one thing that made me really really happy.
there are many many many many cats here. :D
i cannot upload any photos cos idk why haha,
but anyway, everybody take care okay :D
oh oh !!
shanghai and sg is like same in terms of pricing D:

**i called home and mum said that SPARKY MISSES ME!! =D
and i'm sure blackie would miss me too, because i miss them, :)

i miss my mummy and daddy and sister and brother and friends :D
see you guys soooooon!!

anw,
day 1.
reached shanghai airport at 5 plus maybe?
but i dk if it was jam or the journey is just long,
i slept on the bus.
honestly, i think that like to sleep me come back again. ._.
i slept on the plane, i slept on the bus.
our curfew for that day was 10pm,
but we were still abit late cos we were at the supermart buying necessities.
then bathe, wash clothes, sleep. haha.

day 2.
started rather early.
orientation then welcome lunch (my table de people damn funny)
then later go shopping.
i dk is we dk where to go or what, lol didnt see much.
but okay la.
and i dk why i got no appetite.

PS. people take care okay!!
PPS. joanne study hard for ur exams okay, email me if there is anything but NO facebook till u finish ur exams okay
PPS. joanne take care of mummy, daddy and ah gong and SPARKY okay,
PPPS. there are so many cats here i want to bring one home D:

Last Snow translation

don't go
breathe
stay with me stay with me
open ur eyes and say 'i lied'
look at me and smile
i quickly held you tight
i loved you so much
it left a hole in my heart
you were my everything
i wish the snow would fall down
covering the whole world and change everything
all the memories are leaving you flying up through the sky
and falling like snow
goodbye
you cupped my cheek with your warm hand and i bent down towards you and kissed it
if there's such a thing as forever
maybe it's you
still shining
as time stands still
look your hand is still warm
melting the snow
these fragments of frozen tears can only live when it's cold
are they taking u away?
life's pure white wings spread out
shining forever
as you flew into the sky
why? why?
dont leave me alone
i miss you i miss you
goodbye
i wish the snow would fall down
covering the whole world so we can be reborn
all the memories are leaving you
if only they could be buried
there is no tomorrow
look, your hand
is still warm
melting the snow
these fragments of frozen tears can only live when it's cold
so they're taking you away

#184

i want to blog about evil ashley who posted a mean post about me on her blog.
she is so mean. )=
how can she do such a thing to me.
i only posted joyce saying my hidamari as fried calamari.
which was very funny lo.
ok maybe i got post some more.
but she so mean, tell everyone that i am a stalker D:
u can go read her blog sia. she so bad to me D:

hahaha, next. a serious update



**
what would take a passanger 15 min by train from bishan to dhoby gaut took fellow passenger Lim Xiao Pei close to double the time. and that meant that she took 30 min! and we thought that there would never be a jam if we took MRT. If the train was undergoing some trail or something. it should NOT be for use by passengers. whats more. they chose to do such a trial of stopping for a few minutes at each station, stopping in the middle of 2 stations for a few times during the peak period. if anyone asks me, i say its stupid and dumb. anyone can say i'm just a typical singaporean complaining. well i don't care. but do not forget the purpose of one taking a train.
1. its relatively faster and the timing given is accurate because there is no jam.
2. if the train operator decided to hold a test trial, they should AT LEAST inform the commuters. well, i was listening to my music player. but i know nothing is mentioned as people were asking each other 'what's going on' *mind you. they were total STRANGERS*
3. Ever occured that people who take the train/ any other public transport often cannot afford to be late?
4. because they delayed the time at many stations, people squeezed in and i got pushed to a corner. well, i can understand this. but no apologies were made. she just looked at me, and i STARED at her. still no apology. *certainly did not make my journey more pleasant.*
5. i could have been EARLIER to reach the destination than my friend. by AT LEAST 5 min. but no, i was late for 10 min instead.

i cannot imagine if someone was supposed to go for work, took that train and became late. got fired because of that. what an unreasonable reason to fire someone, one might say. but in the world out there, reasonable is something that might just be lost among the crowd.

no, i don't want to go on already.
say i'm dramatic.
COS I AM

#183

blah i'm so bored,
so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so s o so so so so
BORED.

find me something to do sia.

yijun: yes i read fml hahaha,. YEAH main aim is DYT =D lol
darren: lol, eh dun have lor. i think u downgrade to windows 98 already, haha or 95 uh? LOL!!!
Ern: u're the mean one! u even called me xiao pui lo ): D:
janice: haha, that's why lor, super sian right D= but this one also can la haha

REBORN!! i just chionged until episode 146. there is no episode 147 yet :(
that is like so sadddd

some random things i thought of
lei typed wrongly becomes eli
this typed wrongly becomes shit

aaaahhhh i wannna watch reborn!!

#182

yijun: eh walao u say me, then u lei :( u all the bullies sia. ):
darren: eh eh eh i vista business de can. LOL! u got update urs meh, no right D:
Joanne! =): HEY! BAICHI. :DDD
jess: hahahaha! i should have went to look at the tag replies and listen to you lol~
yijun: lol, i found someone who rejoices whenever i blog. are u a stalker who check my blog for updates everyday? HHAHAHAHA
janice: lol janice is it dead now? ur blog, is it dead alrd? hahaha
yanling: update le update le lol
yanling: im not lag, is just tat i didnt reply ur tag lol. and i am not a stalker! D:

here i am, to blog.
because some bad bad friend of mine poked and puked on me... ):
stop looking ard, ern. ITS YOU.
lol.

im finally abit free to update this blog that has already grown cobwebs.
and oh damn, i gotta change my blogskin cos its now sigh....
so many things happened lately!
i dont even know where to start?
haha

ok i shall talk about today first.
today FMGT paper = friday last paper = shanghai trip coming = yayness!
update completed
:)

im so qian da. lol.
today FMGT paper quite okay but i think i have a lot of careless mistakes and all and i think the examiner would hate me because i write so small. but i cant be blamed because the whole paper i was telling myself. WRITE BIGGER. funny, my hands dont listen to instructions. ):
anw, after that i went to adelphi again. let me clarify smth first. my laptop wasn't spoilt. i just sending it for servicing so that the virus can be deleted away. and yeah. LOL thats all for today, besides the fact that i saw daphne on the train and i was talking to her from serangoon to kovan haha, then later when i was walking home i saw wenyi, her mum and her brother and my dog saw me come home but did not call me because she was happy to see me. she called me because she wanted me to carry her to the big big red chair to sit down and sleep):

ytd!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUO EN LI!

trust me, i would post that photo up given the chance. REALLY.
thanks to all who came!!
namely her parents, the f&co gang and her poly friends~
thank you and touched like anything blahs should be done by her. lol
the day was super long i tell you.
study, pack for the chalet bbq stuff, bus to school, exam, bus and then train to tampines, then train to pasir ris, then cab to costa sands pasir ris. lol.
what a busy dayyyyy
then later i was learning fmgt frm ashley hahaha!
go chalet to BBQ AND STUDY.
so happening sia~
then later ashley de daddy sent me home!! TYTY :D

ytd de ytd.
ohh! i cant rmb what happened. LOL.
actually starting from her i cant really rmb what happened alrd. but i do remember that my cousins frm france were here, pity i was either working, too busy with NDP or out studying, or this or that lol. i only met them TWICE!! what a bummer. it was nice seeing them after sucha long time though. :)

then i am still working in watami haha, my hand is abit pain now and then, but just gotta get used to it.

and well since nowi'm babbling, i shall inform you guys that i am going to be away for a study trip in shanghai from the 7sep and i might never come back if i find a DYT lookalike boyf over there. :) hahaha. i really dont know who i will miss and who i absolutely wont give a damn about. im serious. hahaha. ok maybe not so serious haha.

long post yeah guys?
will be back after 28th!
promise!! =D
there u go ern, big bully!

there is something i want to talk about

but i really dont feel like talking about it

cos it might just bring me disappointment.

hopes not held high anymore.