Thursday, September 30, 2010

#236

i just came back from jogging.
whoosh.
feel kind of better after the 3.2K,
but the sharp pain in my legs came back.
seriously what's wrong with me...
i think that's like the only thing that i did today apart from working, lolllllllllll

up till now,
i still can't believe that i forgot about release of results.
LOL.
and that's tomorrrowwww.
i not qi dai at all sia.
am i weird or what.
oh gosh.

i want to eat MAC BREAKFAST LEH

#235

27 September
today felt so quiet.
i can't actually remember what happened today.
OHH.
went jogging with joyce after work today.
we went to the stadium and run about 5 rounds.
lol she wanted to walk the 5th round but the bell ring so i said RUN.
ahhahaha.

28 September
met yijun at void deck.
she was teaching Joanne while I was continuing on my own work.
then i finished that bit,
so i was folding stars.
bought dinner from my fav western food stall (in tat whole coffee shop)
LOL.
*anybody on for the nice western food down at lavendar?*

29 September
work was very upsetting today cos i just couldn't seem to get anything right.
super demoralized.
i felt like i was getting paid for doing things wrong or smth.
went to find yijun at Pasir Ris after work.
we went to sing K.
super impromptuuuu.
actl wanted to go watch some movie
but the timing is like omt lousyyyy.
so we ended up at KBox.
homed after that~
walked home from hougang mall. lol.
pasar malam was still open lah omt.
idk if it's the songs playing or what,
i had a super strong urge to jog/run home.
but of course i didn't!

and idk what's wrong with me.
the two sides of my stomach or smth is in pain.

PS its only been 2 days but i really miss jogging all of the sudden.
PPS i'm feeling very sad, and i hate this feeling. can i like just forget about all this and be happy again? ):

tag replies only (:

who thee: Weeeeeeeee yes yes yes, eh any chance we can get discount for USS :D hahhaa!
yijun: i like go away. u where not happy. i ask u to get one, also never call u a despo! I DIDNT TALK ABT MWS ALRD! mws disappear alrd!
SIYUN: Lol. ya, where u die to huh. LOL. oh ya the 10 dollars! faster qian money pay money! LOL
yu loon: which part happening? LOL. OMG I ACTL GOT IT WRONG LOL ME. hahahaha
It's getting harder and harder to go home with a smile on my face.
i would take the longer route on my way back home.
i would take the lift that is further away from the first floor.
i would open the letterbox even if i feel that it's already been opened.
i would drag my feet and walk slowly.

what happened to the happiness and joy of returning home?

Monday, September 27, 2010

randommm

Go away's nice.
i am super addicted to the chorus i dk why.

i think i'm very weird.
i am actually addicted to the feeling that i get when i jog and the wind comes to my face.
(really like when you walk also got wind)
hahahaha
and i like to jog and nod my head/ move my hand according to the beat of the song.
i'm so weird omg!

#234

just an update before getting back to my work again!
haven't been posting a lot here lately.
not that my life is not happening or what.
LOL,
i'm just lazy.
and i also found other mediums to get rid of whatever i am thinking of.
18 Sep all the way to 25th September.
omg...

18 September 2010
oh yes, we went for a budget outing on this day. however, some woman epic fail on staying ON BUDGET lah. maybe a budget outing needs a plan. like a business plan. i think i should get started on it. so that i can execute my budget outing plan one day. teeheee. then in the plan i should include the dress code, the exact schedule, and blah blah blah. omgosh talking about this actually makes me feel excited what the hell!

19 September 2010
worked half shift at CJ before going home for family dinner at clarke quay. i rmb i super hate that day. dinner's not bad lah, got sharks fin hehe. then the waitress damn epic. tell her dont take away cover she go take away my stove. ): RAR!

20 September
work (dk if i went jogging. hmmm)

21 September
work, but went to meet yijun at hougang mall to shop for her mug. LOL. had dinner too~~

22 September
beloved cousin's birthday! oh man i miss her. every time this happens i think about why i rejected the offer to Australia. so darn irritating of myself. but then.. aiyo i miss my cousin lah! i actually can't wait to fly over to Australia. Any rich friends for company? ((:
met ashley down at jurong point for dinner. omg she celebrated my bday there. okay im super surprised de lor. because i never expected it. then i saw a cake box but i thought she was buying it for her breakfast. she still lied to me and say that she later want to order cake, ask them to leave the menu there. i totally got cheated. LOL. and then i went off home to celebrate my mooncake festival. LOL.

23 September
work again. went jogging?

24 September
work also. met poly year 1 clique for dinner at pasta de waraku at heeren. super long didnt see them! kind of miss them and the random outings that we used to have! went home after dinner cos i had to complete my work.

25 September
oh this update's fast. i'm at 25 Sep alrd! :D met poly clique at vivo city for 'picnic' took quite alot of funny pictures? LOL

damn im tired alrd.
LOL

Sunday, September 26, 2010

#233

just changed my blogskin.
i swear its tiring.
since i sat on this super not comfy chair about 1 and a half hours ago,
i've been editing this skin.
LOL.
okay maybe i might have been distracted abit.
hehe.

That's not the pointtttt.
okay my point is here.
today's my birthday! (:
yeah i have yet to thank everyone on facebook yet.
then there's the silent contributors to my birthday too.
and there's the noisy ones too of course.
haha!

seriously how do i start.
i know you all are dying to see ur names appear.
LOL.
shall keep the suspense longer by crapping.
hey like this i get a longer blog post okay!
i'm cranky alrd.

i'll thank the facebook people on facebook,
and i'll thank the silent and noisy contributors here zokay!

i go by alphabeted group, and then alphabet lah hor, easier. (: okay i dun think u get what i mean. lol.
Ashley: woman, i know you hate the fact that you seem to always find out about what's going on through my head in my blog. dui bu qi. ): but want me to pick up the phone and send one super long sms on how sad i am i just somehow can't do it.. i digressed alrd. lol.
very gan dong with the mini celebration on zhong qiu jie, it really cheered me up (: the present that you buy for me is buy from someone who need help de, idk why i hear alrd feel happy. haha! i read ur super long letter present to me liao. i get what u mean, and alot of those stuffs was what i think is true. haha!
anw, although i know u for about 2 years?, i think we only got close since late last last year? haha. i still rmb i first saw u during a wed morning shift leh. (if i rmb correctly) LOL. i dk why i didnt have sch. but ya. then after that i seldom saw u, and then all of a sudden u were celebrating my birthday with my year1 poly clique and joyce plus yijun and my family. then we decorated AMK's outlet tgther with ric, celebrated ur birthday and many others, went out together to eat, shop, etc etc. i guess its been a long way? haha. i cherish u as my (beloved) friend, even though u are now at the other part of singapore. SO FAR AWAY. nvm when sch reopens i can go find u easier haha! (:

Yuloon: Mummmyy, haha when i read ur letter it really felt like my mother was writing a letter to me! i'm totally surprised when my mum came home with a super thick envelope. i thought a secret admirer mailed me a love letter! haha JOKING ok. i've been so busy and LAZY that i just didn't make an effort to meet up with you, causing u to have to mail me my present ): but i'm super touched that you still mailed me the present, if it was me i think i would just tear up the letter and use the notebook for myself ):
when i read ur letter i actually felt like i was a really great person, u praised me up to the skies alrd. what if i fall down? haha, but i'm appreciative of what you did! ((:
i've known u since orientation camp? and the moment u passed me the letter at the end of orientation camp, i dk why, but i just felt that u are a friend for the keeps (: we've been more of a moral support to each other? hardly talking to one another in real life but staying in touch online or through SMSes, ranting to each other, etc. nevertheless, u are a great friend, and do tell me when anything big (small also can) happens in ur life zokay! ((:

Haslinda: OMG you sickooo! u actl came to my house from hougang ave 8 just to celebrate my birthday at 12AM. (and i didnt even realize that u guys came into my house oops) haha, i'm really grateful to you for this, and also very touched by the cake that you and joyce made for me! (: omg, haha, i dont have the pictures, but please dont post them up onto facebook or twitter omggosh!
my first impression of u was when we were both reporting to school with our parents (i forgot for what) but we were in the hall. and u were sitting diagonally across me. omg u, u sat like a gangster can, and ur mum was like scolding u for that. yes i still rmb it to this day. LOL. it's so funny how one person can have such a sweet smile but is super sadistic on the inside. omg. i rmb always getting hit and pinched by you ): poor poor me. we seldom get to meet up, but im thankful that i started using twitter, then we both get updated with each other's going ons. every time i need a baking buddy, i think i just need to find u, haha. always on one! and thanks for the cakeee again! (u're always baking cakes for my birthday! hahaha)

Huda: why do u have attachment!! u shld like get MC! haha, actl i'm super touched by ur SMS today. it was so timely. i was feeling sad at that point of time that when i saw ur msg, i was so touched that i felt like crying!
suddenly i rmb how we were in the same class but were not close till sec 3 when we both we dumped into 3E2. everyone was so unfamiliar to us that we could only cling on to each other! i think that's not a bad deal. haha! then we would go out together after school to compass point, comics connection (really crazy over our idols lol! okay maybe its just me haha), buying blueberry waffle after that, and me making stupid contented noises, walking over to the rivervale plaza bus stop and me making my face at u whenever ur bus came first. studying for O's together in sec 4, going out tgther randomly to watch shows or eat dinner. haha! i'm really glad that i made such an independent friend like you. somehow i do get influenced and i myself started becoming more independent and strong ((: STAY STRONG AND HAPPY okay!

Joyce: u're another epic one. seriously, i know we stay very near but lol. why do u and haslinda always come find me when i just woke up or when i am about to sleep? lol. then im super cui. still take the photos. omg. touched and grateful that u and haslinda baked the cake for me since 10am in the morn, and super surprised that its a success! okay im damn bad. haha, but ya, touched okay!
i still rmb how the short one year of same classmates brought us to what we are today. now that i think about it, our class was kinda havoc? haha. i still rmb how funny it is that you could call me at the end of the class but i wouldnt hear it. junxi would hear it instead. when he is further away. i guess as friends we do have our fair share of ups and downs. we just stopped talking for like one plus year in sec 3? and then we were suddenly preparing for o levels together with huda, etc. its funny how mac never chased us out when we occupied their 'best' seats and bought in sweettalk drinks to drink now that i come to think of it. our group always does the weirdest things. anw, i'm thankful that i got to know you, (:
actl i was in a super bad mood today, because i had to ownself call the dinner place and book dinner, buy my own cake and prepare the candles on my own at home. omw to somerset to meet u guys (i didnt know who's coming, only know is a big group lol.) i was really contemplating to just say im sick and then go some weird and random place to spend the day alone. seriously, the whole journey i was thinking of places and excuses. i even thought about going to the playground that i always go to when im sad, punggol park and SPCA la. okay but i dk where SPCA is and the rest are too near my hseeee. lol. throughout the whole journey i kept playing sad songs can. and when i finally played one happy song when i reach somerset, i almost cried lah. i think that's why i didnt see the big group of u. oops. but then, i'm glad that i didnt back out in the end and that you guys came to celebrate my birthday ((: XIE XIE NI MEN! (scroll down for individual name!)

i'll make an exception for this group okay, cos yijun plan majority of the thing, her name should be on top!
Yijun: go get a boyfriend lah you. okay no link. btw, i'm still younger than you, like at least 3 months. thank you for planning this birthday celebration for me, even though u keep saying it fail, etc. and keep apologizing. gosh, DONT APOLOGIZE ALRD. i really will get angry one! even though ur art (according to u) is epic fail, but then i'm still touched by the fact that you and my sister went over to compass point to decorate my cake, and the scrap book that you made for me. ohh, and the present that you and my sister bought. through the questioning and u all ownself give hints. i alrd knw what u were planning in mind. but yea, i shant say much. lol. anw ty. (:
i never talked to u even though we were in the same tuition class for like idk how long. our friendship maintained as sending songs over to one another until one day u came to class, and u suddenly cried. i asked wj what happened and she told me that u met with some friendship problems. then we just started talking from there. i still rmb how we three walked from hougang mall to rivervale plaza for tuition. then u two kept forcing me to sing ai mei but i just DIE DIE wont sing. LOL. funny how we both go sing K now. lolll

Sister: I'm not ur ATM! )): i think as sisters, we have come a super long way. i still remember how you told me you hated me and my very existence): but now we are like good friends who can go out together with each other friends at times? u're sensible in your own way now, and i know that i dont have to worry so much about you anymore. u're heading towards the last hurdle to ur O's alrd before u start having the fun that i had (for a short while), jiayou okay! my memory epic fail, and i can only help u in ur studies to a super small extent ): btw u should stop bullying me and go find a boyfriend!

Janice: now i know whats with the "SMS me okay" that you were saying yesterday. LOL. thanks for coming, and its funny how we didnt really get to talk so much last time but recent outings we can just keep talking and talking non stop without even realizing that time has passed very fast. haha! u should just come out with us more often! LOL!
my first impression of u was that u are super quiet lah! but then... how i know u are not. LOL. we were suddenly friends who were in each other's classes for the next few sems, (ya we choose one, but still!) u're not only a good project mate, u're also a good friend. glad to make a friend like you in NP, and i really hope that we'll continue to be friends even after graduation!! (:

LY: friend made in SHANGHAI. omgosh. haha. we were in the same class for like one sem but didnt really talk cos of ur first impression of me and cos of my then dont want to know anyone cos they are all making use of me thinking. LOL. and then we suddenly became close when we went to shanghai and did projects together, and came back and did MORE projects together. LOL. i think if i've never opened my mouth and asked if we can group tgther in shanghai, we might not be as close as we are now. haha! grateful for u as a friend, through our random outings, jogging sessions, funny activities like escape and KCC camp, etcetcetc. i still remember how both of us can just stay in school in canteen 2 till 8 plus to study, our h2h talks at really random places. and the super cold Emerald room in School lib was like always the room we book to studyyyy (and C**). HAHA. and yeap, "Remember. Us." (:

SiYun: omg u gay. LOL. u shld like tell ur tuition kid u are busy today! haha, i still remember how you added me on MSN then we started talking from there. and when u told me ur name i just kept wondering how come i dont remember a girl of this name. then i realized u are a guy. LOL. and then we started having group convers with MSN gang, and come up with the funniest things like (S)(*) and our MSN nicks. LOL. actl u thought me quite a lot of stuffs along the way. dk how to explain it but ya, u did! like how i can be in a bad mood, and u just seem to realize it that time, (i think is cos u read my blog lol) and i rmb how we can both be epic fail, forget to bring wallet to school (on the same day somemore) and we can take the same bus but not realize it until i'm alrd about to alight. LOL. why we both so blur. i dont understand. HAHA! actl i'm surprised how we dont see each other but are still able to keep in contact! but still, really glad that i made a friend like you. (: and u stupid pig always use me as entertainer!

SweeMun: sweee moooo ah. actl i seldom meet up with u! and i think its only this sem that i saw u more often cos we were in the same class. LOL! although u always call me elizabird, and even told ur friends to call me that (oh my how can u be so mean ):!) ur jap is good, pass me some of that talent lehhhhh. anw, really happy to know u as a friend, even though we seldom talk and dont even have h2h talks, lol.

WenYi: haha, i miss our random outings. LOL. u get what i mean right. hahaha! thanks for being there for me whenever i talk to u about stuffs. (': sometimes all i want to do is to let it out, and there is you!! ((: hehe. i remember how you sat beside me during stats class, and then we would chiong the tutorial out without the help of ahem. i actl miss the time when we went to study together throughout the night at serangoon mac. we were at a super strategic location where i can watch soccer. LOL. then we chionged IEF tgther. haha! and how we would queue up for KOI together and then go sing K together. hahah! although u are weird (how can one be a barbie and a pig at the same time!), but i'm still happy u are my friend!

YokeTeng: we were in the same class for one sem but hardly talked to each other. its only when we(LY and meee) came back from shanghai that our cliques 'merged' and we started talking and studying together after class, even though we were from different classes alrd. hha! i guess all of us think alot huh, and i think i can say that you and i suffered the same fate under Paul's horrible treatment. ): i like the fact that our groups still make an effort to meet up even though we are alrd in different specializations and sometimes our timings clash. (: i know sometimes u go through some stuff but dont say out, only write in ur blog. (abit like me haha) but nvm, i'll STALK ur blog. haha(: hen happy knowing you cos u are a nice friend, though u always steal my stitch keychain! (kidnap it home once somemore!)

ZhengYao: another OG friend. but then i didn't talk to you until shanghai and after that? LOL. its damn funny. i think we super got yuan cos we seem to join the same random things like NDP and shanghai (though we also never talk there) is it like thank god u ask to borrow IEF notes from me with zhixian? lol. i think you're a good friend, one that anyone can talk to for hours. maybe cos u are so lame and random. LOL. is this good or bad ah. its like although we know each other for a short period of time but we are able to go out like that and just keep talking (of course some conversations have content some is lalala just crapping) like we are super old friends like that. haha! until now im still thinking its so funny that 3 yrs ago we didnt talk at all and now we are like going out tgther for Kbox, CJ buffet, and ESCAPE! actl im kind of grateful that we started talking, if not i would miss out a good friend like you! i think though u like to have fun, but when people are not in a good mood or are feeling sad, u would listen and give funny but true replies. lol, so xie xie niii(:

CJ people like dont read my blog one. so i just thank in general here can. heh.. Even though u guys wont read this, but ya, Super gan xie u all for treating us so nice today, *touched* discount voucher, minus away one person. had to make drinks for us, and even had to come serve us (very ps) people i want to thank are (according to the book): Yu Li, Moon, Joycelin, Jun Dong, Zhu Ying, Yumi, Wei Li, Ah Wei, Qiu Yi, Cheng Yong. i guess i haven't really taken you guys as friends yet, maybe i don't know how, or maybe i just didn't put in the effort. F&B somehow just tells me that the people will leave anytime. maybe that's why i prefer keeping a distance? but i really cherish u guys, (in a quiet way la) and won't forget u all!

and now for friends that i haven talked to in a long while: weishen, wanjing, terence. actually i am not sure what i am supposed to say here, because i really haven been talking to u all for such a long time, but i am super touched that you guys still remember me. LOL. i know it sounds weird. but ya, gan xie ni men!


Friday, September 24, 2010

i was reading through past blog posts and realized the existence of this! bo liao de me started to do. the first one i didn't post. it was epic okay. i tio shock. LOL. u can ask me, but i'll decide if i wanna tell u. the quiz was on what is the name of you ideal lover or smth along that line. EPIC.



You Should Be With a Fire Sign



Your best match is an Aries, Leo, or Sagittarius

You like a partner who's intense and even a little dominating. You want to be seduced.



There's nothing you like better than someone being completely and totally into you.

You are not an easy one to catch, so you need a bold partner who is up to the challenge.







You Are Peaceful



Your positive traits:



You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!

You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.

You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.



Your negative traits:



You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.

You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...

You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.



Your ideal partner:



A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.

Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.

Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.



Your dating style:



Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.



Your seduction style:



Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.

Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.

Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.



Tips for the future:



Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.

Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.

Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.



Best color to attract mate: Green



Best day for a date: Wednesday








You Are a Low Key Wedding



Love makes you feel calm and at peace. Simply being around those you care for brings out the best in you.

To be unloved would make you feel like there was something missing in your life. You'd survive it, but you would have a lonely existence.



For you, romantic love is steady and undying. You've gotten to the point in your life where commitment matters a lot to you.

When you love someone, you are prepared to be there for that person... for better or worse. Whether you're married or not, you're completely true.




Thursday, September 23, 2010

#232

u know how one place is so crowded but you can only see that one person? its this special feeling you get when you manage to see through the whole lot of people and have eyes for just that one person. Looking back, this was what i was then. It was a happy feeling, even though i seem to be looking into a painting as an outsider. it was a simple feeling, a simple yet happy feeling.

does growing up make you forget how to be happy?

i wish i don't care as much as i do. i wish i could be that person who can just let go of things as easy as a snap of a finger. i've been trying to be all that i'm not, placing the strong front, and showing others how i don't need anyone. sometimes i really need someone to be there. other times i just want to be alone. i dont want to care about every bit of thing going on in my life. i dont want to ask why either.

if the person involved is not even bothered to salvage matters, why on earth does the bystander have to care or bother?

everyone is entitled to be tired. but why does it seem like i'm not? do i look or seem like i have the boundless amount of energy to pull people together? yes i admit it is my instinct. i cant stand disharmony. but why can't you guys take the initiative? i'm sick and tired of trying to be the one pulling everything together when you all seem to be calling it quits.

i really miss the times as a kid, when all i had to do was to cry and my dad would come ask me what happened and give me whatever i wanted.
i miss the time when i knew that tooth fairy doesn't exist but i would put my tooth under my bed, tell my dad about it, and expect money under my pillow the next night. my dad would tell me tooth fairies do not exist but he would still put the money under my pillow. A dollar would seem a lot. 2 dollars then seemed even bigger. You would feel like you are able to own the whole world with that bit of money.
i miss the times when dad would read me bed time stories. He would read till i fell asleep. Sometimes i just wouldn't want to fall asleep and he would have to read me two stories. i liked to hear my dad read. it just somehow makes me feel safe.
i miss the times when my brother would disturb me about my small pillow and the doll that my aunt gave me in the past. he pulled the bear away from the doll's hand and kept saying sorry to me and allowed me to hit him.
i miss the times when mom would bring my brother, sister and me to dad's office so that he can have his dinner. we would then play all sorts of things in the office. first of all we would rush to the drawers and cupboards to see whatever office supplies we could 'steal' home. then we would find markers to draw on the white board. we would give each other quizzes and imitate our tuition teacher. then we would run to the fridge of the office and drink canned drinks that mom would never allow us to buy.
i miss playing the lantern with brother and sister and we would fight to see who wouldn't burn their lanterns/ would be the last one to burn it.
i miss how we can go out for dinner and just enjoy the dinner.

it feels nice to be a princess.

What happened to being happy? Isn't it more important to be happy than to be right? I love this family, i do. but why does it feel like growing up seem to pull me away from whatever is making me happy? i love my friends, i do. but why does it feel like they are sometimes making use of me? why does trust have to be so easily broken? why can't i be stronger and accept that if trust is broken then its broken. it's the process that matters.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

tagrepliesonly

COOLEST WENYI: hiiiiiiiiiiii
CUTEST SWEEMUN: am not!! ): and yes, u are annoying, COW! ((:
wenyi: NOT TYPED BY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
joyce: welcome(:
who thee?: i like their new album!! haven listen to all the songs yet though haha!
E L: joyce ah?

Thursday, September 16, 2010

#231

AHHHHHH
i actually typed alot of crap alrd.
and then the stupid laptop of mine had this blue screen error.
omg the horror. i think it's spoiling.
HOWWWWWWWWW):
never mind buy a new one lor.
LOL.
I love Joanne . xxxxxINFINITY.
talk only lah hor.
okay my creditors.
i'm saving up for my laptop so i need whatever cash that i should get back.
please return me my money.
or i shall go find whatever ACRYLIC paint i have left in my house.
and splash on ur door.

eh seriously.
i cant rmb what i blogged halfway lah.
oh my.
i think im too tired.

18th August 2010 - 02 sep 2010
okay i shall talk abt the time since study period. hehe
haha basically i just kept studying during the 3 weeks break,
and it got to an extent that i am sick of studying.
i totally didnt want to touch my notes before the exam paper.
neither did i want to write at all. its mad sia.
i study in quite alot of places this time round.
airport, school, central, amk and bishan lib, rivervale plaza and blah i think no more. haha!
journey was pretty long, esp to airport, but oh well, hehhh
then we had a few night outs studying.
overnight studying.
CUI LA SOME PEOPLE.
my sister joined in for studying quite alot of times hhaha!

and then during study breaks,
we also had fun lah.
went to sing K (alrd uncountable lah), went to eat buffet(twice).
watch movie.

went to eat CJ buffet with yj and zy.
they both went crazy over nan gua bing.
and cos of that,
we went there for second round after abt 2 weeks.
and we sat at the same table, same setting.
but second time we went to clarke quay to study after that haha.

celebrated joyce and has bday tgther! (:
on the 23rd of august. ((:
went to pizza hut for dinner and the dessert shop next door for dessert.
LOL.
joyce was kind of surprised.
we went over to her hse the next day (yj, me, ashley, joanne) to surprise her w a cake~~

03 sep to 09 sep was EXAMS!!

OH after exams more happening
09 Sep 2010
went to sing K at amk.
before that we went to eat (darn i forgot)
wait. i think we went cathay to sing instead lei.
or was it hougang?
omt.
i really cant rmb.
AHHH I RMB NOW.
we went to hougang mall for steamboat buffet with yijun's mom and grandma.
omg i feel so bad for sponging off her mom!
then after tht we went to sing K,
and then we went homeeeeeee (:

went to escapeeee with ly, yj, zy on the 10th sep!
((:
like finalllyyyy :)
but i was late. i left house late cos i went back to take passion card then went back again to take monopoly deal.
eeps.
reached kind of late.
then we went to eat BBQ chicken.
haha!
but cos i alrd sort of eaten apple before leaving hse so i alrd full.
i ate mashed potato in the end haha!
AND THEN WE PLAYED MONOPOLY DEAL WHILE WAITING,
and after we finished eating haha!
ly came to join us after that.
then we went to escape!
macflurry sia. ):
play awhile only then rain.
actl is only play one round of viking and then we went to haunted 2 cos it started raining.
there was this super funny sec 4 kid that came to sit beside us.
haha!
there's smth about sec 4N people that makes me want to talk to them.
maybe its cos my sister is in the NA stream?
then zy started freaking us out by suddenly scaring us.
lucky yijun is always in front of me. hehhh.
we waiting for 2 or 3 hours while playing monopoly deal.
haha moral of the story: always have a backup plan!
then we headed off to Ehub to watch movie.
LOL.
we watched a lousy show according to all three of them.
yeah we watched haunted changi.
but i think the show has its good points also,
though i dont encourage people to go watch.
heh.
then we went home~ (((:
with a return ticket to escape :D

11 and 12 sep spent on work.
12 sep half day only though.
went for family dinner afterwards.
after effect of the dinner is my parents are not on speaking terms.
up till today.
doesnt take 2 idiots to figure out how bad this situation is.

15 sep to 16 sep
camp at sch for some korean club?
1st night supposed to scare people at a NW but then we got found out and had to cancel it abruptly. lol. idk how it ended up to that affair but we didn't get to sleep the whole night.
next morn everyone cui,
and a very upset me went to buy soybean milk in the morn.
and i went to buy apple cos i was feeling sad.
and green apples make me happier.
idk why. weird.
but they brushed off 4 out of 5 apples ):
LOL.
and when i got home, i went to sleep.
got awoken at 8pm.
damn i only slept for 3 hours.
ho seh.
i went jogging after that.
weeeeeeee
LOL.
and my mother didnt allow me to eat green apple cos i didnt want eat dinner only want eat my apple.
):
she bought alot of food from JBBBB! (((:
17 Sep
WORKKKK WHOLE DAY AHHHH.

i just feel that you dont treat me like ur other friends.
the balance inside me is tipping,
and i detest it.
and i absolutely hate the fact that every time this kind of thing happens around this period of time.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

boooooooooooo.
yeah i'm alive.
i just had this super hectic life even though my exams are over.
actl i need recharging alrd.
i know i sound like some cyborg,
but yeah.
my body kind of works this way...
my holidays have finally started!!
okay great.
i have no idea how to spend it.
honestly, i'm tired now. i'll blog tmr.

WORK STARTS TMR AT NINE!! :))

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

#230

hha im just here to mention that i'm alive.
(:
blogging soon,
Happy birthday joyce btw ((: (24AUG)


there are things we wont forget in life,
but we should be strong and make whatever sad become strengths to continue our journey.
"有故事的人才会创造有意义的作品。"
damn i cant exactly rmb what the zhong san long said to chen xinyi
but im sticking to it i dun care!
i ♥ ming zhong!!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

#229

yes now is exam time, and that means incessant blogging.
(:

headed to AMKhub for Salt today.
totally random,
but it has been on the back of my mind for quite some time already.
headed off to bishan to study alone till 6 plus,
walked home from kovan station,
bought dinner home.
my right leg's in pain.
i dk why, ):

i suddenly miss people watching.
you know what exactly is the idea of people watching?
it's to watch how fast paced almost everyone is going.
it's for you to reflect that on normal days,
you're just like one of them in the streets,
rushing off to one appointment.
people watching is for you to slow down your life,
and appreciate the things that never came across to you as something great.

i need the lone time.
and i don't want to explain why.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

#228

I'm not going to explain that I'm okay.
Just don't ask me.
Let me heal, I heal by writing.
this picture is mad cute.

life's been pretty mad and now that i'm starting to slow down,
i'm starting to not get used to it.
mad mad
i'm supposed to enjoy relaxation.

06 August 2010
and so the 4 of us met up to sing K and we walked over to bishan to collect our NDP passes ((:
The three of us then went back to AMK for Inception while ZY headed off to erm. i dk where. lol.
great movie actually.
everyone should go catch it ((:
we went to eat at Sumo House before the movie, niceeeeeeeeeeeee and cheap food i would say,
heh.

07 August 2010
my gut feeling tells me that i worked the whole of today away,
with my legs in pain.
yes the aftermath of not resting.

08 August 2010
Family lunch AND dinner.
gosh.
crazy right?
lunch at Shangri la was not bad actually (above average i would say :D),
but dinner at Jumbo was a tad bit salty plus the waiting time was...
accompanied aunt & cousin from France to Taka after that,
and homed! ((:

09 August 2010
NATIONAL DAY!!
and that marks the end of NDP 2010 ushering.
really glad that i made a group of fast friends that i know cherish all our moments together!!
and we can finally meet up after our dear QUEENIE has completed her 'O's!! JY QUEENIE!!

10 August 2010
yes i worked today full.
i was supposed to people watch during my break but yijun came to accompany me, ((:
and i saw my cutie pie volkswagon car ((: X 1,000,000
work was quite alright i guess haha

11 August 2010
We're so hell of the random.
met yj and zy for lunch buffet at CJ.
haha!
i skipped my dinner and breakfast for this.
LOL.
nah, not on purpose skip one.
and one of us (NOT ME) said "after lunch we should go sing KBox"
and that was where we ended up.
NO STUDY.
goshhh.
it was raining heavily in orchard.
we ran to cine.
IN THE RAIN.
we are super cui.
moral of the story"if your bag is big enough, bring an umbrella"
really, we do the weirdest things!
i went jogging at night!! weeee happpy me! (been ages since i jogged)

12 August 2010
met wy, yw and his friend nicholas for Kbox today
we went to have astons before that.
it was fun, haha!
though its 2 continuous days of singing!!
my money is all flying to Kbox. wth!

13 August 2010
work today,
it wasn't super tiring.
In fact, i felt quite free.
My partner at night said the same thing haha!
the rest of people in the shift were a different matter.
sis came to find me after study i guess,
and we went home together. (:
and there was this stupid table that left so late. RAR

14 August 2010
studied today!!
but halfway go collect yijun's phone
then went to clarke quay to find sis and her friend to study tgther before we went home.
and those crazy maniacs( sis and yj) went crazy over sticky.
aw comeon! it's been in sg for so long!

15 August 2010
Went to celebrate Alvin and Michael's birthday today!
omg i love them.
they are so uber cute!
i'll upload photos soon ((:
♥ THEMMMMM
there was this clown magician that i swear was super funny.
i really dk how he made those tricks.
its so cool!!!!!
went to find yijun to study,
but studied for awhile and i got dragged to kbox again...
lol.
alson came to join us but i think he had sore throat.

16 August 2010
spent the day at ACRA with mum.
i'm gonna change my phone in about 3 days.
no iphone, no galaxy S, made up my mind alrd.
its gonna be Motorola Milestone XT.
maybe i got influenced by dylan from fated to love you,
and i only have eyes for those that are bu qi yan and maybe after i buy it, people will start buying it. LOL
whatever,
its a good phone. i trust my judgement.

17 August 2010
studied with wy and sweemun came to join us shortly after.
then we walked around bishan for awhile before heading off to home.
WY DIDNT DRINK KOI TODAY.
its a miracle! (:
went jogging after that,
(:

#227

When i thought that everything's been healed almost completely,
i'm hit with the insight that things are never as they seem.
It's been over a year.
To count exactly, it's been over one year, two months and twenty two days, which makes it 448 days.
And I ask myself,
Is that amount of time not long enough for me to heal?
What can this memory of yours do to help me live my life in a more complete manner?
It's a vicious cycle.
I just don't know how to face facts that I've got to move on.
I stubbornly hold on to that memory,
even when i know that it only causes me deeper pain as time passes.
Blackie, when i saw the cat of the same physique, same fur color, same shade of eye color,
I smiled.
When i saw it chasing a cockroach running around me, i smiled too.
That moment was short-lived.
Because when i noticed how similar you were to that cat, i broke.
That same feeling of assurance that only you could give me.
Like a lost child who lost tries hard to remember where she should go.

I can't help but wonder.
If everything around me was still the way it was when you were around,
would i have looked at the cat differently?
I figured that i would go home smiling and telling you how similar you were to a cat i saw downstairs,
and maybe that cat was your mother.
I would be telling this to you, happily.
But you're gone, blackie,
and you're not coming back anymore.
It's been umpteen times that I'm telling myself this but
its just that now i know that I've always missed you,
i've lost my sense of directions again.

I've always hated myself for allowing myself to place my projects over allowing me to heal completely from losing you. If there weren't projects, and there weren't people who pushed projects to me, and if I did not put on a strong front to pretend that I'm fine, maybe things might have been different. Maybe people around me would have done how lost I was and they would leave me alone for as long as I needed. Maybe you would say that it is just me shirking my responsibilities, but you are not me, and will never be. You can't understand the hurt that I've went through.

I hate being strong.
I'm just going to crumble down this time, curl myself and cry.

Monday, August 16, 2010

argh im not as nice as i look like people.
don't get cheated.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

#226

once in awhile, i like to sit down wherever i am and just think about the going ons in my life and what has been bothering me.

you know what people say about others moving on?
i do know the feeling of being left behind all of a sudden,
i do know the feeling of leaving people behind.
but i guess i don't know the whole feeling of someone being left behind yet.
is leaving people around you behind due to certain unsaid/unwritten reasons wrong?

I've been thinking a lot recently, while taking buses alone, while waiting for people around me. These pockets of time just seem to fill my brain with lots of ideas. I've been very busy, filling up my life with all sorts of activities, and at the end of the day, i question myself. what do i want to get out from it? am i really enjoying all the things I've been doing, or am i just doing everything to stop myself from thinking so much?

blackie's been on my mind quite a lot lately. perhaps it's due to the fact that my thoughts would somehow trail towards the question of "would things be different if blackie was still here?" what exactly is my regret towards blackie? i figured that apart from the very reason that i blame myself for her death, i just miss her. there's no regret for me to speak of because i feel that i have already done so much with her throughout her life. and yes people, i don't talk about it that much anymore, but i do miss her.

and now i talk about regrets. we hear this statement from so many people around us. "Cherish what you've got before you lost it all." We humans just don't learn. We leave room for regrets, we hurt what we love most, and regret when we lose it. Perhaps we should start noticing that it's these regrets that make us feel human. We all make mistakes, we might or might not learn from them. Perfection itself is an imperfection. When does one person yearn most for perfection? I don't know about others, but for me, it's when one is feeling most vulnerable and alone. That's possibly when that person's inferiority complex is at its highest? We need the perfection to keep our confidence level high. This plan backfires, because perfection is unattainable.

And yes, i am a perfectionist, when I am feeling lost, and alone.
I've got to start living,
with or without you people.

Friday, August 6, 2010

#225

HAH!
i'm back again!
school is unofficially over for this term already.
and this brings me closer to the period of time that i can do what i want ((:

i'm actually dead tired from my napfa ytd.
okay actl i tried to act smart.
tue went to do a trial for my napfa,
then go play ard with the fitness corner.
so now tht napfa is over...
(((:
PS i swear my classmates are freaking FIT.

27 JULY 2010
okay today marks the end of JAPANESE!!
at least for this semester...
haha.
i've one last semester left,
SO I BETTER BUCK UP DURING THE HOLIDAYS. (:
speaking test was kind of dreadful.
so worried!! :X:X
but i had a good partner ((:

28 - 30 JULY 2010
projects?
i think that's wat i did...
maybe?
haha
[OH 30 JULY had family dinner with aunt from france ((:]

31 JULY 2010
NDP Preview today!!
i love my group!! ((:
went to collect uniform from LY before the show
heh heh,
i swear i looked like a clown.
and when we took photos with the PRO,
they said we look like red hill.
kind of true....

01 AUGUST 2010
workkk!!
went to orchard central during break to study.
not very productive for me actl.
maybe cos i just want a break.
haha!
okay EXCUSES. ):

02 AUGUST 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEE MUN!! ((:
submitted WISP reflection at 5.03pm cos some idiot printed things for about half an hour!?
macflurry sia.
joined yijun, jocelyn and alson to study at AMK hub after that,
i swear i'm tired.
wonder why..

03 AUGUST 2010
freak,
we are damn bloody hell random.
yijun and i went kbox from 2 to 7pm
crazy nutcases i would say.
we're mad.
went to trial my napfa after that

04 AUGUST 2010
muscle ache, i'm serious.
dk what happened.
too long never train or what?
yijun came to my hse to print stuff for bcomm,
omg sparky didn't bite her sia.
ahhh my dog so cute.
i like to bully her.
hehehe
met ashley for fish and co
OMG SHE TREAT ME TO DINNER LA
*guiltyyyyy*
THANK YOU WOMAN!! (((:

05 AUGUST 2010
NAPFA today,
nah i shan't complain or be too happy abt my results~~
kbox with the girls after that.
but doggone it,
i was so freaking tired. )):

06 AUGUST 2010
THTS TODAY!!
going to go kbox and watch inception today with YJ, LY and ZY!
all their names got Y de. ): only mine got XP so weird. ):
yayyyness ((:

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

tag replies only (:

wy: it's like only now that i realize my tagboard's existance. LOL
HAHAHAHAHA: LOL. through FACEBOOOK. LOL
who thee: ((: got go watch? its damn cute!
yijun: i think u're the retarded one leh...
yijun: its conveniently. (:
=p: WHO ARE YOU AH LOL

#224

and when i stop,
i really stop for a long time...

projects have been hell.
song currently stuck in my head: gives you hell by American Rejects.
gosh,
its been like 10 days since i blogged.

17th July
NE3 today! (:
met up with grp mates for brunch at LJS.
it was fun,
and we went out to usher the public today!
but ushering the SPAT schools wasn't exactly easy,
i would start wondering how they are going to survive in this society in future.
it's not easy, especially with the standard of living increasing,
society's getting increasingly fast paced,
who would slow down for them?
sometimes i feel that we take things for granted,
we really don't know what we have until we've lost it.
but people just aren't going to see it.

18th July
met up with crazies for movie!!
DESPICABLE ME! ((:
i like agnes.
she has a unicorn, i have a bear. we're similar.
LOL.
suddenly we have a family of despicable me. LOL
ok i shld stop lolling. letter L is coming out of the keyboard again.
ahaha!
went to eat astons before that,
we smuggled (JELLY) inside.
its so funny.
who smuggles jelly inside one!!?
anw i liked the movie.
its funny.
haha!
i like funny movies.
met ashley for KBOX.
lol.
i found someone who sings softer than meeeeeeeeeeeee
haha!!

19th July - 23rd July
mad rush of projects.
i seriously dk what else i was doing,
other than staying back and study.
LOL.
but then!
ok i really cant rmb. ):

24th July - 25th July
mad rush of projects while in Malacca for holiday
dun call me crazy.
i objected to the holiday )):
crazyyyyyyyyy

26th July
submission of 2 projects!
(like finalllllyyy)
met yijun and jundong, and his friend alson for Kbox at hougang.
oh my we sort of went abit mad.
kept asking jd to sing but he didn't want.
actl i had fun lei yijun.
the singing part.
LOL.
and crazy yijun and me decided to attempt bu tong by angela.
we ARE crazy.
(:

i've been really crazy lately, going to kbox so frequently. LOL
NOT PLANNED BY ME HOR!

Friday, July 16, 2010

#223

omg when i start blogging i just can't and won't stop.
LOL.

okay what i'm going to blog about now is extremely serious,
and is not a joke at all.
after so many years,
i finally know where i stand in the friendship with this fellow friend.

first of all,
she's really weird. for no rhyme of reason,
she comes talk to me on MSN, saying SHIT YOU
(i didn't do anything to her la! walao eh)
and then she bo tai bo ji say i bully her (wth? i never do anything!)
and then cos she doesnt have as many cute emoticons as me,
she is jealous and says, "u cry u big ar!"
seriously, my friend. ):
i feel like i'm being mistreated ):

and then after this, she know i would confirm blog abt her being mean
seriously, no sense of guilt sia she.
she still can say "you are going to block right"
BLOCK.
EPIC FAIL LAH SHE.
i see how she BLOCKS whatever i say abt her here.
(it's the truth though, i didnt edit any parts of the conversation)


experience, the power of picture cropping people (:

#222

i can't sleep.
seriously.
my body clock's like screwed.
SCREWED AH. ):
i should go to sleep.
i should sleep early today.
but i am so stubborn,
i don't want to go sleep.
ok i tried to sleep.
but it just didn't work.
):
it's unfair.
oh btw,
IB project is over.
goodbye (:
okay i have nothing to blog about today. LOL
can't wait for my weekend (:
this's post 222 btw.
my fav 2! :D

Thursday, July 15, 2010

#221

if anyone asks me why i am blogging when i am supposed to finish up my IB,
i'm going to tell them that i have enough with a whole day of IB.
i need a break.
experts say that breaks are good for progress in work.
and i'm using my breaktime to blog.
go check it up. it's IEPOAIX theory.
okay so what do i want to blog about...

i'll start with ytd!
thought school started at 12 but it started at 11, and as a result i skipped the first lesson of the say, which was IPD lecture. hmmm. did my IB proj while waiting for end of lecture outside.
lunched with yijun at alumni in the end and went off for tutorial.
headed to ourspace to meet yj and yt after class before doing a bit of IB proj and then heading off to town to sort of celebrate weili's farewell.
okay i dun think celebrate is a good word here,
but yeah.
went the kbox at cine,
first time at tht outlet seriously.
hahaha,
and they made me sing a song alone cos they claim i never really sing?!
*faint*
really damn paisei for me actl.
):

my eyes are seriously closing at this point of time
my throat is *coughs* in pain?

today,
i skipped school for IB project.
saw EC today (:
really spent like the day in the lib
gosh.
had mac for dinner.
eh the spicy nuggets not bad.
but someone can't eat spicy food then want act smart order that lah.
in the end had to trade with me.
LOL.
lousy oh!
hahahaha
and now i'm finally home.
wanting to sleep but know i shouldn't.
okay end of break
DESPICABLE ME ON SUNDAY WOOTS!

PS DIE Again's nice. i want watch
PPS ytd watched a bit of gossip girls and find it kind of interesting
PPPS can't wait for end of projects.
PPPPS actl nothing alrd, just like to see the PS's P increase. haha!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

#220

OH HI!
supposed to like blog and defame people but was so caught up in my project.
LOL.
okay maybe i lie abit.
):
but i tried my best.
i have absolutely no interest in indofood agri.
its like.
i dun even use their brand of cooking oil in my house.
i use SESAME OIL
hahahha!
ok lame. that's not my point of this blog post. LOL

you know this friend of mine.
he's called zhengyao.
super evil.
always giving SNUFFY names like snappy, shuffly, (there were like 20 the last time i counted lah).
then now he says that he's gonna have to bring me to the psychiatrist if i continue saying that my bear can talk.
i think he is jealous cos his can't.
oh well.
his can't even move lah.
AND THEN HE SAYS HE WILL STAB MY SNUFFY WHEN I AM (dragged i suppose) SEEING THE DOCTOR.
omg so evil and mean right.
and he actually says that he is nice like all the time (lies!)

VS
you knw, this is so funny that i must share.
zy the future artist.
no make it abstract artist okay.
he actl says it looks like me.
omg.
can u imagine. (so big difference lah. one so cute[obviously the one on the right!] the other. *coughs*) haha!
and so i took my revenge.
i notice i only knw how to draw one type of face on msn LOL.
so sad.
eh walao. at least i gave him proper eyes lo
he gave me tht idk confused eyes?
LOL
see, he lies again. say his face is happy and cheerful and kind hearted.
don't believe him okay.
i think he has something against people's bears.
PS SNUFFY says HI! LOL


oh then i have this friend. gosh is she my friend.
like seriously.
she actl slapped me!
ya whatever, on MSN.
so? she still slapped me!
and one time not enough.
piak me 4 times in total.
SEE LAH.
my friend sia.

i suddenly feel like changing font color.
imagine ah.
i use white font color.
then people read alrd they have to like highlight it.
LOL.
ok lame.

ANW.
yijun's another bad friend.
i can't believe my friends are all like this. ):

PPOOOORR MEEEEEE

haiyo, im bored again lah.
eh i didnt mention the itouch app that yijun has in her itouch sia.
its like so super cute lah.
i swear if i ever have an iphone i would Download it.
its this app. you shake it once. then the thing would shake a milk can.
then it would laugh.
and its laughter is like ohmygoodness super contagious.
i never fail to laugh.
who on earth has such a funny laughter?!
i'll show u the trailer.
super cute and funny. haha!



come on, don't deny.
you want to watch it.
YOU DO. (:

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

#219

wooooooh,
what am i doing here, when i have an IB report to rush out huh.
i just come back here every 5 to 10 min when i am sick of looking at report. :(
oh i have this sudden craving for nice food.

ya kun kaya toast, Auntie Anne, Koi, cup walker, watami, crystal jade buffet, makan place's homemade barley, mini melts, M&M Peanut, strawberry lollipop, fish and co, astons, famous amos butterscotch cookies,

ok the list can go on, like. really. go. on.

let's see what i achieved recently.
i ran 5KM ytd! okay, over 5km, but ard there. but i stopped for like 10 minutes to go do other stuffs after my 2.4km. then i went to jog 3km. i really like running. then blasting the music. i realized how much my lifestyle changed over the years. i used to hate jogging. used to hate running. but now i think i can't live without jogging/running at least once a week. i haven't been brave enough to do what i like to do. and i guess jogging is the first thing that i insist on.

school has started. projects are nearing deadlines. exams are coming. but i don't feel anything. gosh i shld like get myself back on track. started on jap, having test for next two lessons before calling it quits for the semester. today i went to class and this classmate that i don't speak to unless he is prompting me answers suddenly ask me if i ever went on TV on news. oh my... up till today someone remember. SO PAISEI. queency baked cookies! ohmyyy, NICE. and then i'm reminded of the baking classes that i want to sign up for. LOL.

somehow, wherever i go recently, Valentine's been replaying in my head. LOL. "But it's a good excuse, put our love to use. Baby, I know what to do. Baby, I... I will love you. I'll love you, I'll love you." yes this has been in my head. lol. funny. gah...

gosh, mws therapy seems to be less and less effective sia. ):

have been having NDP these few weekends, so can't work. i love my ndp grp. LOL. they are all funny people. can crap with them, esp Lee Ping. LOL. she's very funny. but this time i dont get to watch fireworks. though i get to see the parade that has the 3 times gun shooting thing. haha! i'm so greedy ): but i dun get to see any of my friends who joined NDP. i'm like isolated from them. LOL

went to study with yijun and sis at compass point on sun morning. then we went to work after that. wear contacts to work abit paisei actl. haha, we went to eat mac in the morn. mac breakfast. i dun like their service. i smile at her and she give me black face. then she give me wrong packaging (no maple syrup when i order hotcakes) i ask her for it. she just change my packaging never even say sorry! then next cust she was so polite. wah, super macflurry service!

my throat is dying sia. :(

i keep playing city bloxx on LY's phone. haha. okay i desperately need to get a new phone. my sister's nagging at me. cos i should be the one changing now. but i'm delaying cos i dun have the time. and cos iphone4 not out yet in sg but there are like so many problems with it alrd. OH did i mention i LOVE despicable me? watching the trailer alrd makes me laugh like an idiot. can't imagine what the movie itself would make me. crazy perhaps? haha! this little girl is like so super cute :D gosh i feel like a pedo.

met ashley (like finally hor) on friday for dinner at astons! :D and we took photos. hahah. pretty last min thing i guess. initially wanted to go jogging with LY they all but i was too tired. and felt sick also ): and so i went home to sleep. LOL. and so when we met, we crapped, LOL. like usual. and we complain. and we laugh. hahaha! awww.

must have been long since i updated. i think i didnt talk abt yijun and my kbox session. LOL. 2 people with sore throats, both sick, singing songs like ai mei, and wo ai ta. towards the end, my throat couldnt take it alrd. left her solo singing. LOL!

and then i had this entrepreneurship camp where we were student leaders. eh my students damn cute can. in the end they made me a lotus leh. *touched*. i shall take a photo and edit this post when i'm free. im so touched. LOL. eh we went out like late at night to buy them snacks cos they dun like the food. hahaha. and i rushed off to work after the end of camp. LOL.

and then i had this NYBC 2010 event for 2 days at causeway point where i was the organizing committee cos its a school module project. damn cool but so hard to find performers! rushed here and there on sat cos i had NDP after the event. but the event was a success :) our 'family' went to have dinner together after the second day. somehow or other, i'm the youngest daughter. LOL!

been staying back quite alot lately to complete projs and do jap homework. eating prata after that, or da-baoing to underpass or ourspace to eat. haha, and so, studying sometimes can be fun. we stay back till like 8 plus 9 then go home everyday. though it's tiring and draining at times, but its still fun :) full time mugger after 30 july people. :)

i've been doing quite a lot of thinking lately. and i realize quite a number of things. well, ending it off with past regrets, present commitments, and future anticipations.

why are you still my friend?
lost to time. you.