#181

WEEE~ here i am, back again. (:
yeah i knw, i disappeared for a longggg time. hehe,
so this is going to be a long updato!

11 August 2009

sick, stayed at home whole day. OMGOSH. its so bad i feel that i am going to die soon.

10 AUGUST 2009

feel a bit feverish, ): i stayed home because of it. and cos my passport was with teacher, OH GOSH.

09 AUGUST 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

everyone started getting nostalgic, and patriotic. probably cos this year's theme brought us back to the past, there was humour added in, and all. majorly cos i was in it! =D (that was a joke.) lol. i had quite alot of fun being an usher, though yes i knw, i am very quiet cos i really dun like to talk when i feel my hair is in a mess. dun ask me why. there are so many random/weird facts about me. lol. i made alot of friends, and though it really was clashing with so many of my appointments, i dun think i regret it haha.

08 AUGUST 2009

worked today. quite fun la. but how to say, so many different memories start joining up. i also dk where to start. oh wells. i do enjoy working at watami. the people are nice, they all go towards one goal. but idk? there is some insecurity within me. im scared. and i dk what to do...

07 AUGUST 2009
kena cheated to go NDP today. in the end go there for a free meal nia. lol. EBA presentation ended today, YAY!! bye EBA, BYE ECD. BYE I AND E =DD i cant wait for holidays. i want meetups meetups meetups meetups before i leave for shanghai.

06 AUGUST 2009
events management presentation today. wah. i abit sian sia. dont really wan talk about it la =X

05 AUGUST 2009
ECD presentation plus get back test paper. passed lol. full stop. hahaha. i got there late and i skipped hrm revision lecture because the video i was doing suddenly stopped responding and worst thing. I DIDNT SAVE. then save already dk why the Wenyi the 'i' and Leader the 'r' disappeared. weird video. we made fun of nelson again lol. THANKS WENYI FOR THE NOTES TAKEN IN REVISION LECTURE!! <33
04 AUGUST 2009
had jap test after school. got back HRM project grade. jap speaking test was kind of funny but we forgot what to say. hehe. never mind. i got 24/30 =D thanks to sweeeeeeeeeeemooooo. heh heh. plus previous week's writing test result is a cfm pass!! yay~~

03 AUGUST 2009
cma's last tutorial. before that went to do jap script with moooomooo. lol. so didnt go out with rest of class to IMM, after CMA exam lets have class outing and take lots and lots of pictures okay :D first day at work. very nervous. nobody to tell me anything. i felt so scared!!

02 AUGUST 2009
went for job interview. so sudden. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEEMUN!! =D

01 AUGUST 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAXIN!!

29 JULY 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SY!!

#180

im so lazy to update because life is so busy for me these few days!!
i want a holiday. i want it and i badly need it.
before i do anything, TAG REPLIES!!

yanling: wah, so long and we still on the topic of ur prince. lol
yijun: there were many many long posts after that! >.<

yijun: what, that topic was you are my sister's friend, not mine )=
ern: lol, my stand is still u are whiny lolllllllll
Joanne: HMPH, huh!
yijun: wah, i so gan dong sia, u still applaud me. LOL!
janice: woman u very funny sia. you tag me, facebook chat me, and msned me to tell me you lost the FMGT video!!
yanling: OH! because circumstances called it, and because the night suddenly became day, i updated a bit late due to jet lag. (i dreamt i was on a jet u see :D)
yu loon: i wasn't i wasn't!! see the tag to yanling, i explain alr, hahaha
ern: i am? i am the least fierce person in the world!!
Joanne: soon ah, last time i checked, nothing sia~
yijun: yeap, gonna talk abt it hehe
yanling: u are the stalker lor, my place frm the start ard there de lor~

and now, my posts!
before anything else again, i want to talk about my 2 upcoming events.
first one is on the 18 July 2009. (can dont bother coming actually i not sure what there is in store for you. okay joking. the target audience for my event is secondary school kids, SORRY!!!)
second one concerns all of you!!
well.. on the 25th July 2009, my group will be setting up a stall selling japanese goodies including the SUPER FAMOUS YET HARD TO FIND LIKE ANYTHING

RAMUNE GLASS BOTTLE!!

so people, i know you are tempted already. (even if you are not, u better come)
go grab your friends family, boyfriend, girl friend, anyone related or not related to you to come down!! and of course buy something from MY stall and not the other stalls.
only buy from other stalls when you bought something from mine okay :D
i really want profits.
it will be fun!! so just come down kays, there will be alot of stalls set up~
i just sum up the details here
1. location: old hougang interchange (walking distance away from KOVAN MRT station)
2. it starts from 9am to about 5pm (just come anytime between)
3. there are lucky draws, etc. heard that u can win a plasma tv.
4. BRING MONEY TO BUY FROM MY STALL!! (others i dun care hehe)


should i still update? haha
**i cant remember what happened between 6 July to 10 July.
my memory refuses to be jolted awake
10 July 2009
i have totally NO idea what EBA is talking. no sense.
11 July 2009
had NE show 1 today! wah fireworks really sian diao la. so little
i attached to monfort junior today.
the boys are so noisy, really.
they very funny also. sing all sorts of songs, like spongebob, etc.
and they so cute la! eat dinner then ask me want to share with them anot, hahaha.
** IT RAINED HEAVILY LO at the end. i was drenched cos i pass my poncho to 2 kelian boys who threw away their ponchos. long day~
12 July 2009
met up with NAING and joyce today!!
he leaving le sg soon le, so go meet him.
he very nice, treat us to food at thai express. lol
cos he like thai food, we go eat that, then later we went to swensens to eat ice cream!
haha, then we paid for his mochachino? lol
13 July 2009
didnt go school today sia. pangseh janice. i feel very bad for the whole day la.
then later i talk to wenyi, realize janice had fun sia. i guilty for nth. lol
14 July 2009
long day, i had a HRM presentation in the morning, followed by a CMA test at 5pm. it ended at 6pm. tiring day. the whole day was spent studying, really.
15 July 2009
i had ECD test at 5.15pm and it ended at 6.45pm. weird timing. i do badly in weird timing tests. the timing then changed to an even weirder time when we reached. it changed to 5.21.30 start.
._.
then later take bus back with wenyi and yanling.
had mac, then bus home, then teach sis math, then feel like fainting due to exhaustion

and there you go, a tired me updating
i am not looking forward to my tight schedule up ahead.
yawns.

#179

okay, i promised an update. and so, i shall not break my promise like those people in my life. (rolls eyes)
*this is supposed to be a happy post.* RAR
okay, update.
(apparently, a very lazy xiaopei has decided to reply tags on next post hehe)

Outing with has, huda, and joyce.
we went to watch conspiracy on the hmmm
13 JUNE 2009
we went to cathay to catch it haha, basically haslinda and i think its not bad but huda and joyce dont like it.
huda even took a quick nap!
but im telling you its not bad.
i dont know why people go rate it so low. stupid people. =D
*remind me again guys, what did we eat? why do i have no recollection? =X*

Outing with has, huda and joyce again on
19 JUNE 2009
its to celebrate huhudada birthday!
haha
we always go to fast food to celebrate her birthday,
next year cannot already. we must go to highigh classclass place hehe
haslinda joined us late, and due to that, we camwhored without her. ahaha.
then we went to the lib (YES WE DID)
i tink there is smth wrong with me. i got to lib to borrow arty arty things and comics. i dont borrw biz related stuff. is smth wrong with me? haha
went home like close to 10. man, i miss them already~

Outing with ern and sister on
25 JUNE 2009
we went to eat fish and co and watch transformers2
actually i wanted to watch the drag me to hell de, but then amk cathay trying to be funny with me.
never air that show.
i didnt find it funny though.
i liked transformers though. its a good show with so many elements added in.
loyalty, love, family. i just hate the EEEEEEEEE sounds made by the machines.
and when i was talking about it, the stupid sbs bus went past me with an eeeeee sound. so irritating!
i shared fish and chips with sis and we had MERMAID FREEZEE!!! weeeee! so happy ^^

29 JUNE 2009

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY JOANNE cang cang=D!

**i guess further details of what happened in my life are just projects. therefore i do not think there is a need for me to talk about it.
okay maybe just briefly. hehe. HRM HRM HRM, EBA EBA EBA, ECD ECD ECD lol

04 JULY 2009
had NDP CR3 today!! oh man, i am not a suaku but fireworks never fail to make me happy. lol. i am so weird. i dont care about pollution if you are talking about fireworks. okay, maybe i do go on abit about so much smoke in the air and i wonder if its poisonous. lol. but i still think its nice. ushering is quite weird for me cos idk what to do. and when i dk what i need to do, i usually look idiotic. plus, the weather wasnt very cooling also. i dont like hot weather. but i like to spend my time doing new things. its fun!

05 JULY 2009
went to amk to paint ugly looking(now) mussels. damn. i cant paint. i hate painting! i never liked it. can say have fun? lol. went home to continue with HRM project. i think HRM loves me. it tries to make me love it by giving me not bad results but i pity it. its still unrequited love. im not interested in HRM lol.

PS should i mention my results? yes no yes no i dont know no haha~
PPS i think i really hate sbs. i have smth against them. idk why
PPPS i always get the feeling that my school will close but it is not doing so
PPPPS i have 2 events coming up, COME SUPPORT ME =D
further details would be given soonnnn hehe

life has not been kind
it has not been nice
i have tried my best
i think this is irritating

wanna share this~
是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了 快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

#178

before i start posting my long days,
(on my next post i really promise on the wed latest)
I WANT TO TALK ABOUT PATHETIC PEOPLE IN MY SCHOOL.

why pathetic?

because!!!!

they just keep spamming my npmail and i get so sick and tied of it when my teacher or whoever sends me impt stuff and i totally cant see it because it gets blocked off by the multiple non important but oh so irritating posts.

OWN UP. whoever you are. i'm irritated.
tutor already say don't use it.
you all still use and use like nobody business.

ANY IDEA I JUST DELETE IT.

waste my time and waste yours too!!!
npmail is not for that can.
i totally hate to see my mails because of that.
and now i seldom go in.
and after spamming so many times,
you send another one with the apology for spamming, system was lag etc.
to me, its just excuses.
dont ask me to u is what. im not interested.
spam alr still want send another one tht just put apology

i ask you. GOT BRAIN ANOT!!

#177

#176

i have this friend.
who called me noob
say i am the most noob de.
but i realised that he was more noob than me.
he is now because i am defaming again hahahaha
i am (very xiao zhang)
lol. i think i like crabby emoticons.
i need to go out soon but this one must defame la hahaha

i told him ttys, tc and he huh?! me

XiaoPei, the Random. is thinking... says (1:10 PM): why u huh me ??
Hunggg. says (1:10 PM): cause yesterday dunno wad u tok ttys
Hunggg. says (1:11 PM): blablabla
XiaoPei, the Random. is thinking... says (1:11 PM): LOL. ttys is talk to you soon
Hunggg. says (1:11 PM): then i realise it means tok to you soon
XiaoPei, the Random. is thinking... says (1:11 PM): HAHAHAHAHAHA. so funny! tc is take care~ LOL LOL LOL. who is the noob one... you right. you you you! haha
Hunggg. says (1:11 PM): no school no work aH? oh. last one lei?
Hunggg. says (1:12 PM): alright. me!

and thats the main point haha

personality test

Name: xiaopei
Date: 6/19/2009
Colorgenics Number: 14052637

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You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

this is freaky because i think i can relate to alot of what is said. and i dont like it cos its so bloody negative

#175

SONGS currently in my head: pictures of you, come back to me
longgy post already!! *reply tags on next post (=*
i shall be a good little kid and update my blog before others complain.

i think crabby is so cute kawaii *insert in your own languages of cute HAHA*

i shall blog from monday~

15 JUNE 2009
monday was spent at home, heartland mall, ACRA, Adelphi, AMKhub and home again. lol
WHYYYYY
woke up and wanted to play maple.
STOP.
no one to call me childish, maple got 2nd edition lor. its cute so i play.
go heartland mall for transition to MRT lol.
Why did i go to ACRA? because my mum want to do dk wat accounting so ask me go with her.
in the end the guy who need to do not there
._.
so the genius me did everything (=
WAHAHAHAHEHEHEHOHOHO
dun ask me what that means. i dont know~~
of course my sister went too
then we went to city hall to adelphi because my laptop spoil )=
again.
waited very very long.
mum and sis keep laughing at me because i was doing stupid things while waiting )=
tell me five working days then will okay.
i SIAN diao immediately.
then went off.
following that,
we took a train to AMK cos sis needed to go for tuition.
and i finally got my PUNK STAR BAG (=
20% disc lei. hahaha
i told you i am lucky.
then homed~
dad picked us up from opp our house to drive us home lol.

16 JUNE 2009
did nothing at home today.
only did a card for sis fren and many failed attempts of a decorative smth
gave up and decided to do everything else on 17th

17 JUNE 2009
did yijun's card today.
completed the decorative smth.
met joyce at one thirty to go bishan.
i went out of the house and turned back because i remembered about her earring.
lol.
i feel that people should not put things with me because i will forget this forget that.
yes i know my memory is bad but i heard that eating food that i like and having things that i want can make my memory become better.
IEPOAIX's theory.
really. its true i think.
people who want my memory to get better should buy me things i want (=
the planning was a bit retarded la.
but yijun was more retarded so yea, u knw. HAHAHA
and so we went to sakae to eat tea time buffet, ended up super bloated.
walked around J8 to overcome the feeling.
went to swensens and the feeling came back hahaha.
HAHA we ordered a cake beforehand and yea, u knw~
cos our dear friend had always wanted an ice cream cake for her bday so i this good friend decided to go buy for her (=
FYI: i wouldnt like ice cream cake for my bday ahahha.
reason is just cos i dont want lor. not that its not nice. its nice but yea~
ended up walking around again then homed~

18 JUNE 2009
worked afternoon shift.
i really cannot stand it already .
later halfway through the shift sy sms me ask me i working is it. he saw me.
then i was like eeyer see le dk how to say hello de
he say he CANT recognize me.
and i said i didnt see him.
he say he so HANDSOME i also cannot see
he say he was at starhub but when i went on a roundabout to find yijun and pass by starhub i didnt see him~
he playing hide and seek sia.
then yijun pei me go to adelphi to collect laptop
later we went to suntec to walk walk at carrefour.
i miss the times where i would push the trolley and just take everything i want.
but it was a no mood lol.
it will come back i guess.
i bought yan yan and nice chocolate.
my bro and mum and this and that likes it.
ME TOO
bro coming back from ARMY on friday~
abit miss that he usually sleeps later than me haha
we then went to HANS to eat.
talk and talk and talk.
OH and did i mention that we got lost alot of times
okay twice only.
we dk how to walk back frm tower 5.
suntec is so bloody big i never want to work there.
dont suan me if you see me working there one day.
haha!
then when we took the train, we got down the wrong escalator .
then we could have taken a shorter escalator to get to where we wanna go but we went all the way up and go down from the right escalator.
we are so smart (=
give me a million claps for that
hahaha
later reached kovan le i walk home.
otw thirsty so go 7-11 buy slurpee
my fav apple ice blend hahaha
no. 1 fav still mermaid freeze from fish co.
who want treat (=
u will get smth priceless frm me (=
my eternal gratitude hahaha
homed~
i. wanna. play. maple.
maple.
maple.
maple.
i think i am very very WHINY

lets just say,
i miss everything about you.
i miss playing catching with you
i miss playing hide and seek with you.
i miss looking high and low for you.
i miss you.

on another note,
i don't want to lose the trust in you.
but.
i don't want to hurt you.

#174

i was talking to my supposed friend called yijun today.
but it turned out that she is not my friend.
she is my sister friend.
i feel so cheated la.
LOL!

we were talking about maple but she side with my sister instead of me la.
say my sister got more potential than me.
then i ask who is her friend.
she tell me JOANNE.
SEE LA. THIS IS MY.... sister's friend.
SO SAD SIA

LOL LOL LOL LOL


[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:35 PM):
i think she got more potential lor!
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:35 PM):
laalalala
XiaoPei, the Random. is not a patient person. says (11:35 PM):
OOI
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:35 PM):
hahahahaha
XiaoPei, the Random. is not a patient person. says (11:35 PM):
TELL ME WHO UR FREN IS
XiaoPei, the Random. is not a patient person. says (11:35 PM):
)=
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
orh
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
joanne
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
lols
XiaoPei, the Random. is not a patient person. says (11:36 PM):
HOHO! I agree with you
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
LMAO
XiaoPei, the Random. is not a patient person. says (11:36 PM):
THANKS AH ^^
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
hahahaaha
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
np!! ^
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
^^
XiaoPei, the Random. is not a patient person. says (11:36 PM):
u two
XiaoPei, the Random. is not a patient person. says (11:36 PM):
i swear i will fame u on my blog
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
LOL!
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:36 PM):
u aso abandon ur blog liao
XiaoPei, the Random. is not a patient person. says (11:37 PM):
u just wait
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:37 PM):
lalalaal
[c=#8000FF]Yi Jun[/c] [i][/i] says (11:37 PM):
who scare who

#173

Kurebiz`: LOL, tell me why are you always insisting that i did smth bad to you~
yu loon: yea. its like so super cute that i feel like smashing it to bits in gratitude for its brain lol
yanling: our topic will still go on okays. you yourself said on that day that he was a she.
Joanne: YA RIGHT. i remember you getting a bit dizzy also wor
yijun: thanks~ (=
yu loon: yeap, for a little while haha
yanling: THE EXXTREME LONNG walk was thanks to you and someone can. ME THE LU CHI KNW THE WAY LO. in the end walk yuan wang lu with u two lol
yijun: yea blogging blogging blogging lol
Joanne: AM NOT! its you la. i wake up at almost 8AM everyday!!
janice: relinked! (=
Ern: you are super whiny you knw, lol

Okay, just an update.

i dk what update i am supposed to update cos i certainly am unable to remember everything that happened from the time i stopped blogging.
so yea.

there is something i want to talk about though...
NOTE: traces of exaggeration and strong emotions will be elicited

its this horrible vehicle operated by a (i would call) monopolist.
i was waiting for a pathetic 15 min but the number i wanted would not come out.
instead, lots of 87, 53, etc popped out,
leaving me stranded under the hot hot sun of god knows that temperature at darn 11.30 plus plus AM
to make things worse to the i swear can be worse than maximum,
i saw 5 to 10 training/ off service BUSES.
YES I AM TALKING ABOUT BUSES.
151 to be exactly specific.
i think i waited for almost half an hour.
if i left house late i am dead.
my whole life would be ruined,
and that would be thanks to dearest lovliest 151 owned by sbs.
its not the first time.
and of all routes those off service buses have to go past. it has to be where i am sitting at, waiting for the 151 to magically appear out of maybe my bag.

irritated xiaopei ends her nonsensical post here.
byebye~
HOLIDAYS START NOW

tagrepliesonly (=

ern: i told u liao right, then it was okay. and now it got worse. shit it. )=
Kurebiz`: ooi, i didnt la. walao. i was just stating nice nice facts. (=
yijun: LOL. this is life. HAHA
YIANPING: i have evidence frm ur blog tht u called urself qianda. but u called me qian bian also )=
yanling: wat wat. its a fact u know. he really look like a girl. you said it yourself la! u then go lose ur IC. i help u fill. i also knw how to fill. huh!
Ern: thats the exact color it is again. damn it. boo it. shit it!
yu loon: ya, haven brought it to fix. probably mon lol. updated! (=

#172

**I'M SICK OF SEEING HOT PINK AND LIME GREEN.

Ugh. so gross, seriously. so hurtful to my poor poor eye )=

SEE.

wth la. really buay song it man.

aiya, update while im buay song with it )=

FRIDAY 15MAY2009

HOHOHO~

i like today. (maybe not alot...)

my laptop go mad today..

but i got to meet madwoman and siaozhabor.

hahaha.

ALARIC and hudadadadada, *i wont forget u too, haslinda.*

i suddenly feel i have tons of people i want to meet.

i just want to put away projects and have all the fun i want.

its at night now, i have the right to dream )=

SATURDAY 16MAY2009

i rmb i did something today.

and i rmb it used up my day.
but i cant rmb what...

SUNDAY 17 MAY 2009

supposed to go out celebrate brother birthday but then he went out on his own in the end.

i dun understand la. things always go the other way...

MONDAY 18MAY2009

School lor. fullstop.

TUESDAY 19MAY2009

today go ICA again.

this time to collect passport.

my last time passport super cute la.

WAHAHA!

now look like *idk what word to describe*

then we eat sandwich from school.

tht lecturer is such a bore. )=

WEDNESDAY 20 MAY 2009

smth funny funny to post here, its super funny

[[SiYun, the Warth!: HEY U!
SiYun, the Warth!: still same job ah?

XiaoPei, the Random.: LOL
XiaoPei, the Random.: YA
XiaoPei, the Random.: )=
XiaoPei, the Random.: but never work for i think almost 3 weeks le

SiYun, the Warth!: wooo
SiYun, the Warth!: then i survive on what?

XiaoPei, the Random.: then u or then i
XiaoPei, the Random.: LOL

SiYun, the Warth!: u
SiYun, the Warth!: lol
SiYun, the Warth!: hhaha
SiYun, the Warth!: sounds like i feed on u

XiaoPei, the Random.: LOL
XiaoPei, the Random.: glad u knw
XiaoPei, the Random.: sounds very funny can
XiaoPei, the Random.: i think i shld blog
XiaoPei, the Random.: HAHAHA

SiYun, the Warth!: ya lor]]

and that is the reason why i need to work. i am feeding people

PS. thats just a joke.

LOL

THURSDAY 21MAY2009

supposed to go goat farm, in the end never go.

today no school for IS.

very veryhappy me.

but sad sad me do the EBA for a good part of the day.

then later mother see me so busy still ask me to go cook dinner.

)=

FRIDAY 22MAY2009

i dont like this day.

my laptop go haywire again

SHIT THIS LAPTOP.

)=

shit everyone.

))==

#171

YIANPING: eh what what what, like that say. of course is very big memory la. is i want rmb anot only lor )=
Kurebiz`: ... WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! TOO BAD FOR YOU~~ BLEAH!!
ern: lol. ke lian meh. like not at all la.~
yijun: LOL, RELAX la, woman!!
yanling: UR DAR IS A GIRL LA!
LINGYING: ya lor. damn time consuming la!!
yanling: nah, u out of the qn~!

Wah i really really sian sia.
now then can start to blog.
lol.
what i am doing currently: irritating dada on msn saying that the one on dp is JIRO.
HAHAHAHAA
what to do, i am bored ma.
and damn i feel damn sick la.
really really sick.
AND NOW. i am currently tying all these in notepad cos i am scaredi will forget but stupid NP does not have connection.
ITS ALWAYS LIKE THAT RECENTLY.
and i get really irritated.
lappy battery running out already!!

just an update

SATURDAY 09MAY2009
went out with mummy's mother who is my grandma today for dinner.
then cousin was in bishan.
but cos he like to eat jumbo, he came all the way down for it
AND LOL HE WAS LATE FOR HIS MOVIE AFTER THAT
okay, thats not a good thing.
i really like jumbo food.
hahaha,
esp their MANTOU!!!
the very few bread that xiaopei likes.
HOHO.
i think im weird.

SUNDAY 10MAY2009
today is mother's day!
i am sadly not a mother therefore i dun have any presents.
LOL.
anyway, today is considered my grandma bday cos she dun rmb her bday.
thats like so sad la....
went out for dinner lor.
before that was forcing myself to do homework.
wth. so no life.
went to collect cake before going for dinner.
grandma cake so exp
90 plus dollars.
went home and i insisted that we cut cake with candles!
hehe.
then go home do hw.
*sad faces times a million billion trillion*
PS. is there smth bigger then trillion?
PPS. YES THERE IS. INFINITY. )=

MONDAY 11MAY2009
school start at nine and ended at probably around nine.
why?
cos events group went to SWCDC to discuss project.
that place was JTC SUMMIT.
so far from my house.
then sister call, ask me if i can go home with her.
so took red line to amk.
then just nice joyce working so go look for her also
end up 3 people go home tgther.
sounds a bit funny.
on the bus they talked about this old man who appears around our house, amk and serangoon. he did funny things but i pity him.
i think he want to be policeman then didnt get to be so ya. u knw, maybe he went abit on the crazy side. idk sia. i dun want an experience like that, i think...
=X

TUESDAY 12MAY2009
school start at 9 then during the two hour break, yl and me went to ICA to renew passport.
we like abit suaku sia.
LOL
then we took IC photo.
i look PALE.
she look even more pale
LOL!
then later when we were about to leave to get back in time for EBA lecture, one lady came up to us and asked us to help her fill in a form about getting a new IC, etc.
in the end we were late, but at least now we know how to fill in IC loss form.

WEDNESDAY 13MAY2009
because i didnt go for jap on tuesday so that i could do events project at home, i went today.
yoko sensei's class!!
her class the speed super fast sia.
almost cannot catch up with it la.
but quite fun wor.
LOL!
and we were like, can we go home can we go home kind before going for the lesson.
*cant blame us, we were really tired*
HAHA.
then went home after that, cont with bits of project.
later waiting for reply then i tired went to sofa sit awhile cos i dun like to sit on wooden chair with cushion. (dun ask me why i also dk!)
tired xiaopei then flew to lala land~

THURSDAY 14MAY2009
xiaopei is still tired!
and daddy told me in the morning that my sister was wondering if they should wake me up cos alot of people were talking to me on msn.
oops =X
i btw just walked away from my laptop, without offing it or anything.
bad bad me. )=
and now, i am waiting for events management to start at one.
and its only 11.26 am )=

update! (shorty one =))

im taking a little little break over here to update myself what i have been doing.
mon - events maangement
tue - events maangement
wed - events management.

SOMEBODY KILL ME!!!!

man. im so tired of proposals LOL

things should get better from here!
i should reply tags and all by hmmm....
TMR !! (=

#170

ern: lol. i think i really hate cockroaches
qianhui: Heys! haha, its okay de la. not rushing de (=
ern: its still alive its still alive~
Kurebiz`: I CANT WAIT FOR FREAKING E LEARNING WEEK

I have a feeling I am going to abandon this blog soon..

3 MAY 2009
i really cant recall what i did...
it was a sunday..
OKAY I RMB NOW.
ric and T ask me to work
but cos my mother want to buy hp,
so ask me to go with them
so i went with them
then.
then.
then.
daddy spent a long time looking at jewellery.
and this and that.
then then then,
we went to eat at SAKAE TEPPANYAKI!!!!
sakae teppanyaki wa oishii~ desu!
LOL.

4 MAY 2009
i think japs are super duper smart.
they think tht studying is very mian qiang and incorporated it in their language.
i super duper love them!
**but i love dyt more more more!~

5 MAY 2009
finished school at 8 today,
cos of jap.
then later go amk wait for joyce.
knw some bad things.
im bent of leaving...

6 MAY 2009
go school feeling really sick and sian.
i really got no mood to do anything sia.
i just want to sleep.
die le la...

7 MAY 2009
i didnt go to school today.
not feeling well sia.
wanted to go see doctor.
but...
the thought of going to the exp doc,
and the thought of queueing at the polyclinic...
i rather sleep at homee....

8 MAY 2009
went for this forum instead of going for work.
i think i learnt more then what i would learn at work.
really.
i think i learn nth there anymore...
it never crossed my mind that if u volunteered for a one time event, they would just think that they are abandoned again...
and yl is really mad. and traumatic.
she keeps traumatising me with her injection...
EWWWWW her!!

9 MAY 2009
spent the day at home.
no more of that place for the moment.


more happy and detailed post tmr or smth (=

#169

yanling: OOI, u zhao si ah!
(:: LOL, got name de right? who la? clue?
ern: lol, im not killing anymore roaches. tht one gave me a nightmare alr.
janice: LOL, u think kranji war memorial ah

finally an update,

27 APR 2009
school was okay la. fmgt teacher seperated us all. then later after school wanted to go for tennis but janice didnt bring her shoes etc, so didnt go. then yl say want go board games but then in the end also never go cos weikai ignore her sms. LOL. so we went to AMKhub eat long john then go home after studying in school for awhile awhile~

28 APR 2009
school ended late late late today cos of jap. very very tired sia.

29 APR 2009
finished school at 7 today cos of makeup lecture. iani replaced me, haha. then i went down later with joyce to write schedule and saw ansar. he skipped lecture for work. lol. if it was me last time, maybe i would do the same. i feel everything changed already la. abit pointless to stay on, but work for one over year already, find it rather hard to quit.. and i found out something which made me feel hard to swallow and i couldnt sleep for the night.

30 APR 2009
work today after school. super funny i tell you. i finish at 5 but i can leave earlier de. but cos mum say she want fetch me go there, so i stayed til 5. then i wait so long for her that i felt i was going to be late. ._. i think work was okay today la. not that bad cos not alot of people. then i do main runner. so long never do runner le sia. then pk help me sometimes. and i look very very tired cos recently wake up at 7 like that then sleep at 2 plus like that. in school from 9 to 7 or 8.
killer.
do runner sometimes very funny.
pk and m keep talking and talking and then sometimes hear what they say super funny de.
like them talking about swine flu. causing f&co to close. cos f&co always no holiday de. they super lame de can.
then later the two of them and king talk to me at the same time. i dk who to answer sia...
ask me dk what next time i will marry rich guy or (i couldnt hear the other option)
therefore i did not answer this question.
i think m asks very funny questions.then when 10 le pk tell me faster go home. haha. but i sat down and scolded people for close to half and hour.

1 MAY 2009
worked at sbw today. with ashley and joyce! yay. no ric )=
ric bluff me )= )=
so sad la
we work for him but he never come.
but its cos his wife sick la. cannot blame.
then i say he owe me alot alot of cake
he tell me sunday go down then he will give me
hahah,
i sunday want go also.
but cannot ma )=
work okay la. we three on floor only sia.
then two managers
then later got one period of time only got the three of us cos the bar and the two manager go out awhile awhile.
then we went home!

2 MAY 2009
work amk today.
station a and greeter.
serene at first greeter but then she go home ma.
did closing.
end very early sia.
abit happy, hahaha
cos sat never like that de.
not very busy but alot of people bad mood.
then homed after going to cheers haha

#168

qinghui: hey linked! (=
Kurebiz`: LOL. i bluff u for what sia~
(:: hey! you are??
yijun: lol? think? good right? i exercise ur brain lei. LOL

24 APR 2009
school like 2 hours only
then later stay back with yl to do tutorial
later mum fetch
say is go home la
in the end go grandma house sit sit
it until 6 plus then go home
half the time i sleeping sia.
recently not studying is sleeping
like nothing else i am interested in.
i dont want to think anymore le.
i just want to sleep.

25 APR 2009
i think i wasted this day sia.
touched jap abit only.
then waste time here and there.
haiyo. wth

26 APR 2009
did tutorial in the morning and afternoon
then at night go out
studied kanji abit abit
sian le

*v*
dont ask me whats that.
its supposed to be a starry eyed smile but
i think it looks more like a bird with the eyes and beak
LOL.
a better update when i feel a bit more free...
(=

#167

i truly ultimatly think i have nth better to do at this time of the day.
i need something to stop me from thinking all sorts of nonsensical nonsense.
that sounds abit hard.

just a idkhowiamfeelingbutitsnegative post.
#1. i truly ultimately hate the fact that around 12 plus am everyday if i am still using the damn internet, i will have to restart my stupid laptop because there is this stupid idiotic idk what kind of virus that attacks my laptop. DAMN IT
#2. i hate the fact that my lectures are like more then half the school across from the entrance of the building.
#3. i really really really cannot stand it when guys like someone and just DONT open their mouths when they made it so obvious to EVERYONE already. wats the point of letting everyone know then. it feels like a dog marking its territory.
#4. i dont like like the feeling of loneliness these days. i dont like to go anywhere alone when there are alot of people at the destination. i feel outnumbered.
#5. i dont like to see people queueing up for those really cheapskate things.
#6. i really cannot stand it when i see people rushing into the MRT station. i think they deserve to be taught civics moral education once over, more intensively.
#7. i cannot stand it when people use those colorful letters over and over again repeatedly. i think they should brush up on their vocabulary before they start speaking because repeated words just goes to show how many words they know.
#8. i dont like it when people tell me they are going to E but on the way they drop by A,B,C,D and do not tell me a thing about it at all.
#9. i dont like people to ask me to do this and that for them. i do things for people WHEN i want to do it.
#10. i dont like it when people try to control what i am thinking or try to talk me into something. if i am in a good mood i will listen, but if i am in a bad mood. you're dead.
#11. i think that people should give credit to themselves for whatever they do and not keep pushing it to someone unknown to me (at least)

idk why i am typing this. but im not shooting anyone. just abit irritated recently.
okay easily irritated.
i think the list can just go on.
and at the end of the day i would wonder.
wow. i have so many land mines.
and all these are like suddenly appear kind.

have anyone wondered how people make friends?
when u were in kindergarten, pri school u made friends so easily because u werent afraid of losing face.
then suddenly, u wake up one day and realised u forgot how to make friends.
you suddenly grew conscious of things around you.
there is this 16 40 60 theory going around.
at 16 u worry about how people think of you.
at 40 you stop bothering and
at 60 u realised no one was thinking about you.
funny as it seems, it does seem true to some extent.
people love to cling on to whatever they lost.
and as a result, u lose even more.
therefore u cling on even more.
they closed their eyes to the rest of the world so that they wont face anymore regrets,
without knowing that they would face even more regrets not seeing the rest of the world.
unwritten regrets. unknown to them start to surface a long time later, when its too late to turn back.
and you hear people saying ' i should have '
the point is, why wait?
why learn to be someone who regrets again and again instead of living for the present and future?
unless making urself miserable is the goal in ur life...
then i have nth to say.
when was the last time u went up to someone and say hi i am __. can u be my friend?
when was the last time u spent time to know somebody?
people just look at whatever they saw in a glimpse and came out with a whole new conclusion and story.
people just want to receive. and when people who keep giving do not receive, they will start to become someone who receives over time.
as a result, nobody gives.
even the most optimistic person can have depressing moments
and this is something i realised, the moment i started poly...

tagrepliesonly(:

yanling: i where got. eh walao. memorial for it lei. but got retribution can. i got nightmare abt cockroach lo.
janice: LOL. hahahaha! anytime also can give one lo. wonder school sell anot
ern: eh wat wat, damn big can. u wait. u owe me a knock on ur head.
Kurebiz`: where got average, its very BIG!! what post?
janice: lol? scary? got meh? i think is scary for me can!
janice: HAHAHA, forget lor~
janice: u never remember to remind me ma. is ur fault lor
janice: yes its very very funny!!
janice: LOL. im getting abit lazy already, haaha
janice: LOL, better then nothing wor.
janice: see, stay at home la, thts why nth to update
janice: GOT LOR! tht day u say de lor
janice: GOT thousand now? ahahaha!
janice: LOL. only today ah, so how many mushrooms died today? LOL
janice: OMG now uncountable le ah!
janice: ya, dun have 10, cos more then 10
janice: LOL
janice: nonono, not zero, thousand!!
janice: LOL
janice: you also lor!!
janice: HAHAH! we two damn bo liao
janice: im tired le
janice: i also one by one!! hehehe
yijun: ya, EEE alright!

#166

i didnt kill this blog la.
but i didnt have the mood to blog here.
IM SICK SICK SICK.
okay. falling sick. )=

okay update

15 APR 2009
forgot what i did lei
can anyone remind me or smth?
i have been thinking about it for days.

16APR 2009
ROT at home today, hahaa.

17 APR 2009
worked whole shift today.
damn sad la.
dun want to say the reason here.
then did jap homework.
busy today

18 APR 2009
i didnt work today. supposed to replace ashley
cos actually say want bring blackie see doctor de
in the end joyce replace me.
so just went to hospital to visit granddad.
granddad very cute sia.
he ask me i work got how much money le.
then i tell him, he say
orh, then next time i want to borrow 50 from you can?
i say can then he laugh.
ahahha

19 APR 2009
Worked half shift today.
S do opening today, with M and JLo I think.
Anyway, a lot do opening jiu dui le.
Then I reach damn early. Didn’t even notice.
Later call Janice, talk to her about 5 min to ask her to check the meeting time and all frm hao and contact the freshies.
She and me talk so long like we dun understand each other.
Lol.
Then joyce come late cos manager ask her to take things frm paragon.
Walao. Thanks to her la.
My eyes like cannot open like that, and the worst worst thing is I felt the lack of sleep and I totally dun feel like talking.
Then I abit upset also cos my parents didn’t want to bring blackie to the vet, and my grandpa looked so lonely in the hosp.
wat a life~
then later dk why a lot of people.
We like running a night shift like that. ._. abit madness.
Then later T go in kitchen do hot fudge choc cake.
I keep asking S to do bar things for me. Haha.
Then cos S forget how to do hot fudge le. End up M do.
I order a lot of cake tht day lol. Then later got one MSP at my table.
At tht time I alr no energy to work le. So never really do much.
Then cos for me I think do check back is do when they finish their food better lei.
Or see they not happy with the food then do. If not abit weird to interrupt their meal sia.
Then I see people eat hot fudge choc cake. I also want to eat~ )=
the shift very funny sia.
S & M very upset with P cos P is like ‘floating’. The way they say very funny.
Then he very lame. Ask me and joyce the same lame qn.
Got 2 merlions in Singapore. But why only the esplanade one got water come out of the mouth. Ans super lame de. I gave a very lame ans also.
LOL.
And I think I am very slow. Got one table for 2. Is les de. Then I dk lei. Omg la. I still thought is friends only. Then later they leave, M ask me if I one day will become like them. I qn mark sia. Then I ask who. He give me the why u so stupid face and say les la. Then I say no. then I ask, they les meh. LOL. He give me another why u so stupid face. And then I say, aiya, I not as li hai ma. Then he say as a guy, I see only I know. And im not li hai. Im very li hai. (smth like tht la).
WINNER.
Then later I ask joyce.
She say she knw.
Wt… so I think I am the only one who dk liao lo.
Then later M eating the strawberry cheesecake, then ask me want eat anot.
Then I say want. He say, I cannot finish thts why I give u eat.
Really don’t sound nice lor.
But its nice lei. Not so sweet though~
ask joyce want anot she say no. stupid her.
Lol. finish work then very tired.
Tired till dun feel like going ecp for REVO gathering.
Then I call mum ask how to go. She tell me tmr got sch, ask me go home. Then I was like har? I dk how to answer. Blank. Plus so tired. So I just say orh. Lol, shit. I think im getting a bit retarded.

20 APR 2009
school start le. then got three hour break in between the two lectures for first week. so we go out eat lor. then saw my mum. later they want go play pool. OMG. pool is not a sport that befriends me la. we dont match at all.
HAHA
the moment i think about that time SR outing.
siao liao. feel like laughing.
then later go lect then go home.

21 APR 2009
school start late today.
i feel the lecturer abit, aiya dun say better. lol
then later stay back for THREE hours to wait for JAP.
wah sian
but jap overall fun sia. haha
abit more diff. okay i admit. ALOT more diff

22 APR 2009
go school for HRM
but i dun have the notes
cos didnt get to print.
and i really dun like to ask my mum or dad to print for me at their work
cant they just buy a printer...
after that go vivo city.
ate ajisan.
i really want a new job.
i really think my friend NOT GLAM AT ALL
*-)

23 APR 2009
thats today.
school started at one today.
starting abit alone
oh well.
i guess its like that la.
gambatte ne!
after sch got kinder joy (=
yay~

I MISS GOING OUT WITH YOU PEOPLE )=

esp ashley the idiot woman and huda the bully )=

im at a loss and i dk what to do,
i dun want it to be true
i dun want to lose you...

#165

ern: u then! u then! eh next time see u pass u reborn keychain. super cute!
yijun: lol, never mind de la
Kurebiz`: eh what childish. you then childish ah, anyhow say i childish
LINGYING: MOVEEEEEE! hahaaha
yanling: ur mentality ya la, below 15. but i think ur actual age alr 51 le lo. stop bluffing urself la.
jingz: HEYLOS! i miss everyone sia. didnt see u guys for very long alr!
yu loon: LOL, i also dk what happen. but it better stop sia. sch start alr~
yanling: what name? lol
ZANN: LOL, linked. aiyo, all my frens love me eh, i will shy de! HAHAHA.

update!

10 APR 2009
go jb with family.
then jam like siao.
next time i bring peanut butter smash those people.
stupid stupid them.
i go for a car ride more then a shopping ride.
but i bought my specs le.
not pay de wor.
LOL
thts my best bargain for the day.

11 APR 2009
worked today.
the feel is coming back.
but i still think a change is better.


12 APR 2009
back to jb today to collect specs
lol.
no jam today
good good
then spend a long time at some place smelling car smell.
._.
waste my time


13 APR 2009
worked today
the feel coming back even more le wor.
quite a lot of funny things happened today la.
then they celebrated brendan bday today
seriously, the concoction stinks
and i am damn tired la
recently not enough sleep.
then my eyes closing
plus greeter talk whole day.
voice almost gone
then i started to talk really soft.
lol
dun say people
i can hardly hear myself.
throat pain

14 APR 2009
go out with joyce today
went to bugis
frm *** to shopping
lo
go abit mad sia
she buy me kinder joy!
I WANT MORE
MORE MORE MORE!
i wont get enough of it wor
i like the toys!
hahahaha
then when i got home, a super jing cai thing happened.

YES!
XIAOPEI KILLED HER FIRST COCKROACH!
its very big hor.
super big de wor. i myself also shocked how i killed it
the process very long.
first, i go kitchen take a bowl of water.
then i splash it onto the cockroach
then i used a bottle to hit it once
then i use the bottle to kick it into the toilet floor.
then i use the bottle to crush it.
then i threw the bottle away in disgust.
then i went to wash the bowl
then i went back to the toilet to wash it down the drain
omg la.
after i had sort of crushed it twice
it was still moving.
EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW
i washed it off my sight
i knw i sound sadistic sia
but then i kept saying sorry cockroach.
. . .
but still, its an accomplishment hor.
for a person who cries at the sight of a cockroach.
she is very brave alr can
brave brave me
the cockroach is very big
see the picture

its about one cm long.
those who say its small should get a hit on their head.
hmph.

#164

i wouldnt exactly call this an emo post. but... this is the exact summary of my feelings in the past three over months. and yea, these are the reasons why i wasnt myself for the so many many many months...

Jan 2009
I started to realize something that I never thought existed. I also started to head to another point of my life. Met with questions filling me almost every minute of my life, I wondered where I was heading, and what I was doing. Jan 2009 also marked that month that I have known sy for one year. My good good friend. I won’t forget how you let me remember an important fact. This is also the month that made me very upset over matters in school. It made me realize how something so important to me should never be compromised with something not of same importance. It made me realize that to be me, I have to first understand what I want, and actually show it out. This is the month that made me start thinking if it was true. From avoidance, I started to learn to face up to this matter, only to learn that facing this matter was not as easy as it seemed, and it took up a lot of my energy and time… a tinge of hope relighted within me and I discovered a sense of heartache. This marks the start of when I finally felt there was a starting to be a big change in my workplace, the place that was once filled with bond, laughter and happiness. It was the place I could run to whenever I was faced with unhappiness and stress. This is also the month where I realized that I would not mention the inner most feelings to anyone. This marks the month where I wrote a post about relationships in Chinese. The month my life started to go downwards because my laptop crashed. So many of my memories were gone, just like that. This month also made me realize how afraid I am to be alone, lonely, with people I don’t know well. I would just keep quiet as a result. I started to have a trust issue problem, unable to trust people…
Feb 2009
This month… I started to post even more private posts, with even 3 a day. With more and more things kept inside, I realized that I felt even more upset with things going around me. Besides, things that happened before left me unable to let go so easily. I started to get really emotional, very sensitive too.. I started to avoid certain things happening around me, but I know the problem wouldn’t go away. As a result, I felt even more drained than ever. I also started to think that whatever I did was not appreciated. With that thinking, I got even quieter towards the happenings around me, not willing to give, just wanting to take… I started to go out alone to think over this thinking. Probably because everyone was busy with their own studies, I had that time of not needing to entertain anyone. The support I needed was not there because I never mentioned it out. Again, I felt upset. This month, I started to realize that I would keep feelings kept within, and just ignore everything till I felt that I could face everyone without letting them know I am upset. I was wearing a mask. And I didn’t like it, not a bit. I also found that when I was upset, I didn’t want to have to say it out. I wanted people to realize it.
March 2009
This is the month that made me start to realize that I did not have a problem trusting people. I just made people feel I am very hard to reach out to, and that I didn’t trust people much. I realized how much I did to cover up my own sense of insecurity, how selfish I was, and how weak I am. I built such a strong wall to keep myself in a comfort zone, away from socializing with people. I realized that I was so tired from trying so hard to be someone I am not. I questioned myself why I had to pretend. And I missed the happy me. During one period, things got so bad that I actually found myself void of emotions and I couldn’t laugh, cry. Nothing. I seemed like an empty shell. This is when I started to understand that for things to get back to how it was, I needed to be contented again and wipe selfishness away. I started to think what I was to some people, and this time, I started to question if some people talked to me just because they wanted to ask me a favor, or get something from me. It scared me, but I couldn’t brush it off. And it certainly didn’t help things when people really were doing it… I was then given an insight that all these happened because I was able to see things that others can’t. I was more sensitive to things going on around me. With this, I begin to try to curb this thinking, and try to put myself in others shoes.
April 2009 (up till today 12April2009)
This is the month where I learnt that when I keep quiet, it is due to me feeling a sense of insecurity. I wondered if what I did for others was worth it. Again, the ‘I’ appeared. I didn’t want to face with so many things. And with every bit of time and energy I had, I tried to drive them away. This resulted in me spacing out and not talking. On 4 april, I felt a cruelty coming back to me when something similar happened to me 4 yrs ago. However, overall, with baoc, I started to feel the lost me trying to come out again. I was getting really tired of the many mood swings I was getting from the frustration of myself. And now, I am walking towards myself. This time, I am going to do it, my way, with time.

wth.
its 5 am in the morning and i am still awake.
stupid stupid stupid

#163

Kurebiz`: eh what what what, im not mean u knw, just like that say, but im not mean de lor.
yu loon: yea yea, my taste very the good de, ahahah. yea, im glad i went down too!
janice: HAHAHAHA, good for you eh, good for me too!
ern: u this outsane ah. this is called bully hor. name calling! im not bullying. i just learn frm u only, bleah
yijun: eh i say cannot use another word liao lor. later i angry hor. HAHA
yanling: not on the face. ON THE HEAD. BOOM!
yanling: aiya, ming ming someone complaining and complaining to me le lor. admit la. LOL

im accused of bullying my blog la.
say i starve it and all.
and no hor, actually is like that one,
i want to blog, but then hor. my blog told me dun want la.
so i listen to it lor~
im actually treating it very nice hor, ERN. >.<
u always bully de.
okay la update!

04 APR 2009
i really dun like this day.
4 years ago. on the same day.
the same thing happened.
i feel they are so cruel la. even if they dun mean it.
then my mood go down again...
worked with ashley and joyce.
replaced cloud.
abit upset about something else, but i dun want to mention it here..

05 APR 2009
worked alone today~ abit sian la. then they ask me to replace. but then i dun want and also cos my mother dun allow la. i no energy to quarrel with anyone.

06 APR 2009
go school for BAOC today. got the camp tee. in REVOLUCION DANCE 6! later stay back with them to do this and that for tue! homed i think

07 APR 2009
BAOC DAY 1! our group alot of people sia. minus 2 people but add alot more. in the end we had 15 people in our group! more girls then guys la. haha. the girls like more high like that eh~ haha. i think they quite united la. among themselves. they always talk among themselves.

08 APR 2009
GAMES DAY TODAY! wooohooo! the games i think kind of fun, but then hor. we didnt get to play. hahaha. i think REVO 6 damn sporty sia. lol. but then walk here and there for a long day then after that stayed back, so when i sat down in the bus, i sort of closed my eyes and ya. lala land already. lol
stayed up till about 4 am the day to make cards for the 2 SCOs and ASCO, then my dumbo sister got F&N test the following day. so when i got home was like asking me to do this do that. in the end i one plus then start doing the three cards. really not easy sia. measure this measure that, then must thread here and there. hahaha i dozed off on the table while doing it. then i woke up in the middle of the night and went to sleep on the sofa. COS its nearer then my bed. LOL

09 APR 2009
BAOC final day today! went to school at aout 8 plus 9. then continue making the cards. wenyi slept. janice continue to fahuachi. then later got performance and all. i like our performance and enchanted disney de. then the rest ah. cos i think i too sleepy le. so ya. didnt pay attention. heh, suddenly reminded of that time movie we go watch enchanted. haha. im still thinking. the scriptwriter must be trying to brainwash lil kids that cockroaches are able to clean toilets. EWWW. smart me is not going to fall for it. WAHAHA, no way eh!
REVO CAME IN SECOND~ WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE,
and and and we were best in cheer.
LOL.
throat pain, but nvm la. then got headache also.
on the bus home super cannot take it.
dozed off.
then later reach home then 9 plus go out to compass point there to pass yijun her bag.
and she bought a kinder joy for me! KINDER JOY KINDER JOY~

XIAOPEI WANT MORE KINDER JOY!

on a side note, i dk what to do about something...

#162

Kurebiz`: what. slap me. u are super mean i tell you. super duper mean.
yijun: LOL yea, its obvious u mixed it up! hahaha
janice: ITS DAMN NICE. cos i choose one. WAHAHA. u can only drool at the pic. lol
has: wat wat wat. eh the butt kick is only applicable for earth day 2009. its OVER alr. BLEAH
ern: LOL. OUTSANE! YO. hahahhaha. eh dun call me insane like that la. later
everyone call me that. LOL
yanling: lol i dun love meeting you. why what?

i think i am mean. i seldom blog here now..
until i feel this blog is like a anyhow type some crap to entertain myself thingy..
abit bad sia

update!
31 MAR 2009
out with joyce in the morn to check out some stuffs.
later part of the day meet for a class outing.
we watched mall cop,
and then after tht go home.
i walked up and down cathay and ps for total of 4 times.
i think people think i am mad.

01 APR 2009
today was a fun day.
i forget first half of the day do what le.
but i know at night meet ashley to go fish co eat dinner.
sort of celebrate joyce working in fish co for one year le.
LOL
so long never see idiot woman already.
hahaha
then i forget to bring her bonus payslip again.
really abit forgetful (DUN use other words. i will get angry)
homed at ten like that.

02 APR 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YULOON MUMMY!
haha,
celebrated yuloon mummy 18th birthday with her poly friends at marina sq today.
they are really friendly and nice people.
haha, can tell poly is fun for yul mummy eh~
homed at 9 plus. dyt appeared on show today. but then awhile only la.
i like his jacket! hehe.

03 APR 2009
went to school for BAOC,
then after that homed.
mum called ask me go HGM with her.
then i was very tired but good good me went still
bought LJS.
salty wor~
contacted my freshies
super polite and nice,
hahaha YL jealous? LOL
okay xiaopei sleepy le...